Happiness I Never Wanted
How happy I was
when you said you like me.
Waves sung so lovely
blowing winds hugged me.
Happy pain-
a hurt I can never escape
that moment sea water become salt
and kissed my wounded skin.
Dreadful smile of pleasure
when it mends in just a minute,
I felt as ease then forgive
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the shield I made is not effective.
It was a blissful longing
‘till I found myself crying;
intoxicating pain of admiration
is what pushed me to my grave.
You are the happiness-
that thing I never wanted
for now, that I am alone again,
I felt lost in everything.
MikaTa
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