Happiness I Never Wanted

Author:
MikaTa
Updated:
Nov 7, 2022 1:14 PM EST

How happy I was

when you said you like me.

Waves sung so lovely

blowing winds hugged me.

Happy pain-

a hurt I can never escape

that moment sea water become salt

and kissed my wounded skin.

Dreadful smile of pleasure

when it mends in just a minute,

I felt as ease then forgive

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the shield I made is not effective.

It was a blissful longing

‘till I found myself crying;

intoxicating pain of admiration

is what pushed me to my grave.

You are the happiness-

that thing I never wanted

for now, that I am alone again,

I felt lost in everything.

MikaTa

© 2022 MikaTa

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When you started to feel the pain, nothing but regrets and memories will remain to make you feel even worse.

Thinking of something as it is you.

Just because we thought it was true does not mean it is real. We often overlooked things because we want to believe that things will go the way we want them.

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It's so funny that we often find ourselves filled with regrets just because we forgot to step on the breaks.

It happens more often when you raised your hope just because someone show you a care you had never felt before.