The Never Ending Tunnel - Chapter Two
Chapter : 2 / 18
It's 9 o clock in the morning and Will has to get out of bed and go down for a therapy session. Nothing better to start the day off right?
"How are you today Will?"
"I'm fine" Will replies coldly.
He felt like shit really but he had to act as though he's fine. He had been acting as though he was fine for years and years until it all became a little bit too overwhelming.
It came to that point where he couldn't fake it anymore. But here, there was no other option. He wanted to get the hell out of there as soon as possible and the only way he could speed things up is if he acted as though he is doing much better.
After an hour of talking about how mentally ill he is and talking about the dosage of the medication, Will is finally free to go and continue with his day.
When you are sent to a psychiatric hospital, most of the day is full of activities to keep busy. The day mostly revolves around individual therapy as well as group therapy. In between there are usually classes so that they can keep up with their education.
Breakfast is served in the main dining room and it is served as a community. Whilst having breakfast, all the patients sit around tables and talk about their day. That is one of the things Will absolutely detests about this place. Every single thing is done in a communal way just so they have human interaction.
Will grabs one of the plates from the counter and sits down at one of the tables. At the far end of the room he notices a girl who looks to be around his age, sitting alone. Usually he would sit down and think about how he would try and start a conversation with her if he didn't have anxiety but since they are both inside this hospital and the patients are advised to talk to one another he thought that maybe he should try and make a move.
As soon as he started approaching her he started to feel his heart racing, his hands started sweating and his mind came up with a million excuses why he should turn back and return to his seat. That's social anxiety for you. The girl made eye contact with him as she noticed a figure approaching her and now it was too late for him to turn back.
"Hi, I'm Will."
"I'm Jess." She replied, smiling.
"Do you mind if I sit next to you?"
"Not at all"
As he looked her in the eyes he felt something. He felt those butterflies in his stomach, the ones people describe when they see someone they liked. That sounded all a bit too cheesy for Will but that was exactly how he felt.
Will definitely didn't want to fuck up but he had absolutely no idea what to talk to her about. He had never started a conversation before and the last time he talked to someone his age was years back when he had friends. Back then it was so easy to go up to someone and be friends. But now it was the total opposite.
"Fuck! Do I ask her about what type of medication she's on or why she ended up in this facility? Fuck fuck fuck!" He started thinking. "Surely that isn't something normal people talk about. Shit."
"Do you want to go for a walk outside? For once it isn't raining." Jess asks, realising his difficulty into saying something. She saved him from embarrassing himself.
Jess had brown hair with blue lights at the tips. She was beautiful in every way possible. She had a beautiful smile too. She was one of those girls who Will thought that she was way out of his league. He couldn't quite believe that he would be in this situation; with a girl. He always thought of himself as one of those who would never be around a female alone as he wouldn't ever have the courage to actually ask somebody out.
After quite some time wandering about and walking around the garden amongst the endless flowers, they laid down on the grass looking upwards at the beautiful blue sky. There wasn't a single cloud in the sky.
Deep down they were both sad and lonely teenagers and had a million problems going on inside their heads, but they were sad together. Neither of them was expecting the other to be a happy go lucky person, why would they be in this psychiatric hospital then? But they found comfort in each other.
"So Jess huh? That's a nice name. I like it. So tell me a little bit about yourself then. What do you like to do?"
"Apart from sleeping? Probably read and listen to music." She replied smiling naturally.
Time had passed by very quickly and neither of them realised that two hours had passed. They were so engrossed in their conversation and so interested in one another that they got lost in each other. Neither of them had experienced such a situation before and they had never thought that they would meet somebody that they could talk to for hours without getting bored or without putting in the effort.
What was a beautiful day quickly turned into the opposite. The sky was soon covered by grey clouds originating from nowhere and they were both caught in the middle of a rainstorm. They started running back, laughing their heads off trying to make it back inside.
Just before they entered the building, Will slips face first onto the grass. Jess couldn't help but laugh. His face was entirely covered in mud and she was in tears. Every passing nurse gave them a weird look, probably because Will was entirely covered in mud.
Nurse Holly entered Will's room and he was standing by the window, staring outside.
"Everything okay there Will?"
Nurse Holly was one of the best nurses inside. She had blonde hair and crystal blue eyes. She was one of the few nurses who truly cared about the patients inside. She wasn't that type to not care as long as she's getting that check at the end of the month. She genuinely cared and wanted to see the patients happy and get better. At the end of the day, happiness is what truly matters in life. Nothing is better than genuine happiness and it is even better if you have someone to share that happiness with, and today, it looks like Will has found that special someone.
"Better get ready for the community meeting Will. It starts in half an hour and I do not recommend you going with all that mud all over you face." Nurse Holly couldn't help but laugh too.
The communal meeting was one of those compulsory things which patients had to attend to. In these meetings, the patients would discuss their goals and what they want to achieve after leaving the hospital.
"Hi, my name is Gerry and I am now two months sober and working hard to get the clearance and reunite with my wife."
Everybody had their problems. Person by person they stood up said their names and their goals. Will was on another planet though. He had no idea what the hell they were talking about. He was too busy thinking about the amazing day he just had. Soon it was his turn and he saw twenty nine people staring at him waiting for him to speak.
"My name is Will and my goal is to be happy." Will said embarrassingly. Will hated these meetings because he always felt super anxious whenever it was his turn to speak. He never enjoyed speaking in front of other people and it always made him feel even more anxious.
He quickly turned his eyes to the opposite end and saw Jess. She smiled at him and they made eye contact. She couldn't help but giggle; still picturing Will's face all covered up with mud. He loved her smile though, even if she had been laughing at him and had made a fool of himself earlier on. He would make a fool of himself again just to see her smile.
He felt completely lost in her eyes. Whenever he looked at her he forgot all about the problems he was facing. He drifted to a world of his own and feels a sense of happiness and serenity. He had just met Jess but for the first time in his life he had experienced genuine happiness and that day was the best day he had experienced. That day, he had met someone who made him happy by just looking back at him. From the minute he saw her at the dining room he couldn't get her out of his mind and he was happy that she was always on his mind. Now he had something to look forward to and someone to put in the effort for.