Old soul and young heart. It's like a 60 year old granny living inside the body of a 17 year old.
Hello beautiful people.
"Don't expect a battle to be fair, a battle will never be fair"
This quote from the movie,'Wonder Woman' is what made me watch the whole movie. How true is that? And how naive of us to think that we can have victory the easy way?
It's never easy y'all. In the midst of all the chaos, one thing that's in fact easy, is losing your worth. You don't even realize and you're already putting your worth in the clothes you wear, the makeup you put on, the person you're dating, or the number of followers you have.
You forget who God made you to be and start becoming who the world wants you to be.
Hey, there's nothing to be ashamed of if you've found yourself in this situation too. There's nothing wrong with it. It happens to everyone in different ways but the coping mechanism is same. Go back to the basics, go to back to your savior.
Restart doing the things that you've left far behind. Disconnect from the world and connect to God. Take a break or even eliminate the things that are making you question your identity.
Here, my friend, are some points or steps that you can apply to yourself and align back with God's plan.
1. Cut off the toxicity: Is it your Instagram account or any social media? Are they the judgmental folks in your church? Is it your own family? Or friends? It could be anything.
By cutting off, I don't mean that you become bitter and just leave with no explanation whatsoever, especially if it's your friends and family. Sometimes they don't even realize that they're the toxic ones and it's possible that even you are toxic for someone else but you don't realize.
Start with distancing, not just social but emotional. If you don't put certain boundaries with people, they will try to control you in other ways. And as much as social media is concerned, you can cut it off completely if you want or there's another idea which I opted for. Just log out and uninstall the app for few months, give yourself a break. Read the Bible, journal if it's hard for you to sit and read. After I felt like I was back in track and closer to Jesus, I went back to Instagram and unfollowed everyone who would take away my peace of mind.
I was at so much peace that losing few followers didn't matter at all. I started to talk about Jesus and kept losing followers for like a month. Not gonna lie, I felt bad but I kept asking God to not let this affect me from sharing the truth. After a month, my account came back to life and this time when I log in, I don't see provocative photo and compare myself with others. I see amazing people of God filling my feed with their words of encouragement.
About your church, you don't owe anyone anything. If they're judgmental, honey it ain't your fault. You stay at peace and join another church. If it's possible, try communicating but if it doesn't work then off you go. AND most importantly, don't paint everyone with the same brush. Just because one pastor in your church wasn't Christ like, doesn't mean none of 'em are, okay?
2. Feed on the Word: The Bible isn't a cake to eat on occasions, it's the bread of life to be consumed daily.
"For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother's womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well. My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them" [PSALM 139:13-16]
You're just struggling to grasp the reality of how precious you are to God. He has seen you when you were unformed. Even before you were in your mother's womb. He knows the deepest secrets of your heart. When He made you, he had a purpose for you, a purpose which was meant for you and only for you.
Go seek Him, dear. He's calling you. Just know that the enemy would do anything to make you not read the Word of God and every time you delay and leave it for tomorrow, you're being fooled by the Devil and he's actually laughing at your foolishness. Don't be a fool, read the Bible even if it's just one verse.
3. Be Ready To Rebuke: Well you'll need to follow the second step in order to do this one. Whenever enemy attacks your mind, whenever he throws questions on your identity saying, "Why do you think God can forgive you? He can forgive everyone else but not you because you went way too far", in situation like this you need to be ready with the double edged sword i.e the Scripture. If you've never read the promises of God then how the Holy Spirit is gonna remind you of them in times of need to slay the enemy? It first needs to be there in your head.
So, next time the devil speaks, "God does not care about you", be ready with," Get away from me Satan, my God said he will never leave me nor forsake me.
Did you get it?
4. You're being too hard on yourself. Stop. You make a To-do list and at the end of the day you find that only five could get done out of eight, and then you start to mentally abuse yourself for not doing it.
Not everything's in your control. Imagine a 4 year old doing all his homework in a day and then crying because he/she still couldn't get that one page done. You would tell them, "Honey it's okay, you did your best. You still did more than your capacity at the moment". That's exactly how God feels when he looks at you beating yourself up for the little things you couldn't get done.
When it comes to being easy on yourself, there's a fear in your heart. You think that if you don't pressure yourself to do things then you might never get them done. You think you don't deserve to do it while being gentle because you believe that you're not the kind of person to be gentle or patient with.
Are you not human? Were you not created in the secret place just like every other Lord's precious creation? Do you not have the creator of heaven and earth as your very present help? Do you not have the Son of God die for you on the cross?
Of course you are worthy. He didn't die in vain, he did it for you because you are worth it. You were worth dying for.
These were four basic steps you could take if you've somehow managed to lose yourself and start questioning your worth.
Go to the mirror, look yourself in the eye and say, "I'm not giving up on you"
You've gotta fight, love. And those who love you will fight for you.
Diksha Shakya (author) from India on May 15, 2020:
Thank you so much for your support Eric
Eric Dierker from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A. on May 15, 2020:
You have a fine "voice". Pamper your muse for it treats you well. I am going to think more on what you wrote. That of course is my highest compliment.