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"God," ‘I Look to You’

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Writing is my passion. I have an undying thirst and quest in the field of writing. Some eat, drink or use drugs when stressed; I write.

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When I welcome you into my life, I had much pain from a tiresome journey that led to high hopes and dreams, only to take them away. Living life as I knew it then comprise just moving through it and merely existing — not living — I was not living my life chasing pleasure, in whatever shape or form that ended in pain. Leaving my life troublesome, and with pain, that is hard to disappear. Oh, “God,” ‘I Look to You.’

I did not commit and drifted aimlessly without a purpose. As I take a gander at the face of the broken woman in the mirror, I reflect on my life growing up in the early 80s it reflects a simpler time, a woman maturing into an increasingly self-reliant woman, at least until two years ago.

However, what made the last couple of years different, was that the dark clouds float into my life that carries thunderstorm was full of mistakes and poor choices, mists that caused me to feel like the world is crashing around me. Oh, “God,” ‘I Look to You.’

A few mistakes went back to being raised in the church, which instilled in me a deep trust that if I am loyal and always there for my friends and loved ones, they will also be there for me, but that inculcation was a big, fat lie and a false foundation.

In my life were individuals who wanted me to believe that everything decided for me, and I had no choice in what I did. I could not just accept others as choosing for me, as I can not afford to live a life with a 'helpless' outlook.

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Taking a trip down memory lane contemplating back to the last couple of years, I am so flabbergasted at how my life has turned out. My life is nothing like I had initially planned.

However, the thing that brought a smile to my face is the person I am, my values, and my interests today. 2017 was a challenging year. Although there were undoubtedly high points, minutes when light peeked through the darkness, sudden parts have me moving into 2018 feeling frustrated and very worn out.

Unexpected moment knocked me off course – disappointment, and circumstances, filled with letdown—left me with an opportunity to stop and recover vitality after spreading myself too thin. Oh, “God,” ‘I look to you.’

Notwithstanding, I had to overcome circumstances that were slender because I put in more than I was getting out, and entering 2018, despite my best intentions, I respond to situations that significantly affected me.

I obey the commandments of God, which leads to His plan of happiness, whether then follow Satan’s plan of misery. It doesn’t matter the happenings in my life; I choose joy over sadness, which is a wise choice.

Also, if a person is sad they want to be, it’s up to us whether our trails become roadblocks in life or we can make them expressways to learning and growth? It is absurd to look at the enormous amount of pain that flourishes everywhere in the world, as it serves no purpose at all. Besides, unhappiness and much suffering to come directly result from sin.

There have been long seasons throughout my life where I felt like nothing was going right. Everything was out of whack, and regardless of what I do, things went from bad to worst.

However, one thing I have learned in recent years is life is what I make of it. And if I want to take full control of my situation, I need to free the weak mentality, and I should establish my asset over my circumstances.

Whatever my conditions, there are things I can control and stuff I cannot. My primary focus should be on things I can oversee. There is personal suffering that we all can come to understand, and when things get hard that I find it very difficult to take on the trials of this world, “God,” ‘I look to you.’

A man born of a woman is full of trouble; the truth is evil exists on the planet because people reject God and the Bible. All the corruption going on drove me crazy to where I was not sure whether to scream or laugh at all I been through over the years.

Despite this, I learn to remember in those challenging seasons of life that changed everything…it does not secure a difference in how high my ambitions and expectations for myself.

Or no matter where I am in life, if I am not happy, something needs to change. And no matter how terrible my life may appear, I need to adjust all negative thoughts and poor behavior to go forward and defeat my challenges.

But also, I need to learn to cope with the things out of my control. From everything that I experience in life, it has brought me to the last person to say life is easy. In every difficulty in my life, whether big or small, “God,” ‘I look to you.’

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No matter what evil stuff life throws my way, even if it seems hard to make it through with you, I can be resilient when I am too weak to handle everything alone. On my own, I am prone to fall, but to stand, “God,” ‘I look to you.’

On those days when I feel hopeless, and it like there is no point in living. When negative and disturbing thoughts consume my mind, and it seems as if they are NO way out, “God,” ‘I look to you.’

I have experienced days where my mind is too overwhelmed to analyze the many life issues, and I keep repeating the problem in my mind. I desire a release from an overflow of a troubled soul.

I even experience days where I wanted to float away quietly on a cloud or drift off into a haze where I only think of uplifting things. Stuff far from the reality of this overwhelming life, preferably, “God,” ‘I look to you.’

When things get very hard that it just all too many thoughts for one mind to have to control, “God,” ‘I look to you.’ A sensible lifestyle is central to coping with pressure. Some people turn to alcohol, junk food, or drugs to escape stress, but “God,” ‘I look to you.’

I take ages to get ready every day on the days when I feel able to try, but I am not keen enough, so I lose the ability to control my home or food, then I think I will have absolutely nothing for the rest of my life is so far gone, “God,” ‘I look to you.’

When I am in the presence of others, I feel I have to put on an appearance of appearing respectable and ‘ok’… in reality, I sometimes cry, scream, like a toddler who can’t deal with adult life, “God,” ‘I look to you.’

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Whenever I cannot face reality and refuse to allow myself to get hold of realism, I am living like someone who can’t dress or manage her well-being or life. Afraid. Lost. Unmotivated with a feeling of guilt for being this way.

I am the person who imagines herself smiling or in deep concentration, not violent behavior. But when I am unwilling to face reality, the only way my stupid dreamy mind will maintain is to pretend I am a spirit from another world that has come to live in an imperfect world. A place that cannot comfort because it’s too far from my society.

But in realism, I need to change my poor’s mindset as these points of view are in my messed-up head. When I need to maintain a high quality of life and face it all in national, “God.” ‘I look to you.’

When the late Whitney Houston sings the song, ‘I Look to You,’ she portrays in the song the ways she finds strength in “God” to give her courage in mastering her everyday struggles.

After dealing with her “darkness, deepness/ All the things that made Ms. Houston who, she is coming from her emotional attachment to music and her faith in God. After being away from the industry for about a decade, many waits for her return.

Her new album represents her triumphant return to the music industry. ‘I Look at You,’ this beautiful song explains Houston’s journey to recovery, how she looks to God for strength to maintain in life. Whitney tells her story so wonderfully echoed in the song, ‘I Look to You.’

"God," ‘I Look to You.’

Only A True Whitney Houston Fan Can Name These 12 Songs By One Line

For each question, choose the best answer. The answer key is below.

  1. Clock _____ upon the hour, and the sun begins to ______
    • Strikes, fade
    • Dings, rise
    • Chimes, set
  2. Stay in my arms if you _____
    • Would
    • Dare
    • Can
  3. I've been waiting for ____________ all night
    • The phone to ring
    • You to come home
    • You to dance with me
  4. According to Whitney's hit song, what is The Greatest Love of All?
    • Being loved by someone else
    • Loving a child
    • Learning to love yourself
  5. And in the morning, when I kiss his _____
    • Nose
    • Lips
    • Eyes
  6. From the second you _______ me, I was ready to _______
    • Touched, die
    • Asked, dance
    • Kissed, fall
  7. A few stolen _______ is all that we share
    • Kisses
    • Memories
    • Moments
  8. Dreams don't turn to ______
    • Gold
    • Reality
    • Dust
  9. I wish you _____, but above all this I wish you love
    • Peace and hope
    • Joy and happiness
    • Wealth and health

Answer Key

  1. Strikes, fade
  2. Would
  3. The phone to ring
  4. Being loved by someone else
  5. Nose
  6. Touched, die
  7. Kisses
  8. Gold
  9. Peace and hope

Whitney Houston - I Look to You

© 2018 Pam Morris

Comments

Elijah A Alexander Jr from Washington DC on October 27, 2018:

Pam,

I totally concur with your message to God but, may I ask, Where are you looking for God. Tis written "the kingdom of heaven in with in" and that "heaven is God's throne" so Are you diligently seeking the god within yourself?

The reason those things are written is because when we seek outside of ourselves for God we usually find a god substitute and not I AM THAT I AM God that is able to direct your every action if you will take the time to both ask and wait for the reply.

In light of the foregoing I suggest you surrender your every being to God, ask, rather, DEMAND to be taught by God and to be provided with THE mind to obey all of IT'S instructions. I used IT'S because in the creation story God said "let us" make man of both genders "in our image" therefore God is both many of both genders {see https://hubpages.com/politics/Todays-Sophy-part-7}.

Peace,

Elijah NatureBoy

Pam Morris (author) from Atlanta Georgia on September 19, 2018:

Rajan, thank you so much for taking the time to read my Hub and giving such an interesting reply. I am learning from reading your hubs and responses; you are an intriguing person. A person that has a lot to share through the Hub pages and I love to receive that wisdom I know many others enjoy as well.

Rajan Singh Jolly from From Mumbai, presently in Jalandhar, INDIA. on September 19, 2018:

God planned it all and not a leaf can move without His will. To look at God in good as well as hard times makes overcoming periods of stress much easier.

Pam Morris (author) from Atlanta Georgia on January 20, 2018:

Shanmarie,

Thank you so much for stopping by and replying to my hub. You are so welcome; although you didn't have to thank me for sharing Whitney Houston song. It's a pleasure to share Her song; she is such an inspiring and talented singer. I hope others enjoy her song which may never have heard it.

Shannon Henry from Texas on January 20, 2018:

Nice thoughts described here 8n looking to God. You're not alone in your struggles. I hadn't heard this Whitney Houston song before. Thanks for sharing it.