self medicating

Updated on April 24, 2019

I am running from the pain

Should probably take this drink

and poor it down the drain

Its too late I put it in my mouth

In a few minutes the alcohol will take over my brain

Its bittersweet torture

I know that sounds insane

but the thoughts I have of killing the pain

are the only thoughts that feel sane

even though I forget my problems for the night

I wake up in the morning feeling the same

The pain is never really gone

Just numb for the night until the morning comes

I don't want to do this anymore

I need a fresh start

I need to open a new door

A path that will one day heal me

Not a road that will one day kill me

No more self medicating

Give it up no hesitating

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    © 2019 Chrissie


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      • Poetic Word Bird profile image

        Malik S Canty 

        2 weeks ago from Brooklyn, NY

        Nice piece, well written and truthful...

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        3 weeks ago from US

        Hello Chrissie,

        Bless your heart for it will get better. The first steps was realizing it then accepting it. Bringing it here is the next.

        Keep writing!

      • SimplymeCB profile imageAUTHOR


        3 weeks ago from USA

        It is very real at times even for me. Thank you

      • PoetikalyAnointed profile image


        3 weeks ago from US

        Love this!

        It's real for so many, even if it's not for the author.

      • SimplymeCB profile imageAUTHOR


        3 weeks ago from USA

        Thank you Lorna, for taking the time to stop by and read it.

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        Lorna Lamon 

        3 weeks ago

        A very thought provoking poem - thank you for sharing.

      • SimplymeCB profile imageAUTHOR


        3 weeks ago from USA

        Thank you so much.

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        John Hansen 

        3 weeks ago from Queensland Australia

        Great message and interesting rhyme scheme within this poem.


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