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self medicating

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self-medicating

I am running from the pain

Should probably take this drink

and poor it down the drain

Its too late I put it in my mouth

In a few minutes the alcohol will take over my brain

Its bittersweet torture

I know that sounds insane

but the thoughts I have of killing the pain

are the only thoughts that feel sane

even though I forget my problems for the night

I wake up in the morning feeling the same

The pain is never really gone

Just numb for the night until the morning comes

I don't want to do this anymore

I need a fresh start

I need to open a new door

A path that will one day heal me

Not a road that will one day kill me

No more self medicating

Give it up no hesitating


© 2019 Chrissie

Comments

Malik S Canty from Brooklyn, NY on April 30, 2019:

Nice piece, well written and truthful...

PoetikalyAnointed on April 26, 2019:

Hello Chrissie,

Bless your heart for it will get better. The first steps was realizing it then accepting it. Bringing it here is the next.

Keep writing!

Chrissie (author) from USA on April 26, 2019:

It is very real at times even for me. Thank you

PoetikalyAnointed on April 26, 2019:

Love this!

It's real for so many, even if it's not for the author.

Chrissie (author) from USA on April 25, 2019:

Thank you Lorna, for taking the time to stop by and read it.

Lorna Lamon on April 25, 2019:

A very thought provoking poem - thank you for sharing.

Chrissie (author) from USA on April 24, 2019:

Thank you so much.

John Hansen from Queensland Australia on April 24, 2019:

Great message and interesting rhyme scheme within this poem.