Chaos to Words, Words to Chaos

Updated on February 16, 2019
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Jocelyn is a passionate writer and poet. She loves to write poetry, stories, and articles about her experiences and her hobbies.

Chaos

Chaos in one's mind is terrifying. How do you express what's going on in your head when everything is falling to shambles. How can you sort the chaos inside if you can't even talk about it? "Even if its a mess," he said, "write down all the chaos."
Chaos in one's mind is terrifying. How do you express what's going on in your head when everything is falling to shambles. How can you sort the chaos inside if you can't even talk about it? "Even if its a mess," he said, "write down all the chaos."

Help

Go back, please. Let me


rewind.


Why do I mess up? Why does everything go so


fast.


Please make it stop. I'm not ready to keep going


forward.


I can't catch up. Why won't these things


play



out how imagined them. Please, I'm begging, please


pause


to let me fix the


error


I've made.

Wanting

Who can you trust to


trade


secrets and feelings, your deepest thoughts? Someone who will stay true throughout both of your


lives.

Trust

Who


do you tell everything to? When you don't know if they


can


even understand this great pain


you


feel. Who do you


trust


with your insanity?

Truth

Living


among people who may judge you for who you are or what you want to be may be the hardest thing in life. So you're constantly


in-between


personas that make the people around you happy, but are fake. Inside you slowly die and hope one day people will accept the


differences


before you turn to gray like they want.

Happiness

Am


I going to be worth living in this world? Will


I


be worth something? Will I be worth something to the world? To you? Or will I be


lost


in my own despair?


In


a world that is terrifying day by day, will I survive it? Will I have significance in


your


life? Or will I forever be a blur in your


eyes?

Death

There is simply


nobody


who will help her. But she hopes there will be somebody to


save


her from her demons who attack her at every turn. Nobody will come for


her.

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