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rumbles in pain

Johna G. Chan is a wife and a mom of 2 boys. She is so glad that somehow she's able to make one of her dreams come true... write...


so the moment you're confirmed gone
im entitled to cry my heart out

the moment that im asked to function
im entitled to be dazed and numb

i never thought it would be this painful
i dont think anyone deserves this kind of pain

the pain of performing duties while grieving
the pain of staying strong while swaying

the pain of smiling while crying
the pain of loving while dying

im waiting for this pain to go away
but truth be told, i dont want it to

pain and me have a love hate relationship now
i hate not feeling the pain for it may mean loving you less

moving on may mean forgetting you
moving on may mean someday i will be forgotten too