Inner Turmoil
Just wanting to clear the gloomy clouds to become another "Rae" of sunshine unto the world!
Patiently Waiting
So many thoughts run through my head
Wish I could lay it all to rest
So many feelings/emotions left unsaid
Lords knows I am trying my best
But sometimes my best is not good enough
I begin to commit sabotage
Wish I could gather the strength to be tough
My heart on my sleeve; wish I could camouflage
Every ounce of caring I have
Still with a guard up, pray it falls down
Once it drops I'll be glad
My true self not afraid to be shown
Yet further and further I feel like I drown
In my own insecurities; I can't hear a sound
Been beaten and bruised
Don't want to get it confused
Miss out on happiness for a real chance
Watching it pass by at a moment's glance
Those moments come and they go
Don't want to miss out and what should be my favorite show
Praying to just go with the flow
Have my mind at ease
Enjoy some peace
Lord just grant me this please
I'm begging, I'm saying, I'm downright pleading
Lord grant me protection
From crazy accusations
And free me from temptations
Wanting to fly free
Lord grant me the keys
Unlock my vault and show me prosperity
Deliver me to my serenity