Poetic Version- Drinking My Own Tears

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Drinking my own tears

With failures in life
is the day like night
forced me to fight
with last blatant mistake

mind, thinking about black height
heart, in search of peace of white
like drinking my own tears
with eyes blank, while the mouth is quiet

watching like an audience
my hands without power
moving without my destination
no calls, no questions, no answers of course

why this day came and happiness goes away
falling from bright to dark
like moving from morning till night
with speechless thoughts arrived

words with no sweetness
face with no cuteness
smiles without laugh
look as if I am no more

time shows his charming face
pageant me about my pain
No morphine to help me
and hit-person is there to make me down