Poem for My Sons

you're my realizations
i realized how God trusts me
since He entrusted you to me

i realized that i have more than one heart
each is embodied by you
each heart beats because and through you

i realized the true shape of my heart
it's not specific and it's ever changing
it exactly looked like the two of you

i realized my threshold of pain is so high
my whole being maybe battered and bruised
but still can welcome pain for your sakes

i realized i have so much love to give
when in nothingness you complete
when loving you is all i am

i realized how faithful and grateful i became
trusting and thanking God
for the realizations that came with you