Monochrome

Forever never felt as long before
Even biding my time at death’s door
Seems better than drawing another breath
Without you here anymore
Like the tide washing up on the shore
With every day that passes,
My memory of you fades
Your favourite dresses in all shades of blue
Why you would ever like such a basic color?
I had no clue
Your laughter that rang so clear
A mere echo
through my bereaved heart
That makes the last of my sanity fall apart
Did you like peonies or azaleas?
Did you even like flowers?
How many hours,
Of me thinking about it all must pass
Before I finally break free from this curse?
Upon this land that I traverse
Watching the world around me move in reverse
Monochromatic snow blankets the last of the colors I see
But I know, even as the last snowflake drifts away
The longer will my heart fray
A thought lingers
As the frost claims my fingers
No spring will ever thaw this winter
None but you can restore the warmth in my numb hands
© 2021 Leisha R