Ever since I knew nights wouldn't be good without you but instead of moving away and never risking the chance of getting together with the lonely once the universe decides to take you out of my life, I took the leap.
I free fall-ed my way to you—no harness, no parachute. Basically it's just me with no precaution, boycotting the safety procedures, not even thinking about how to land.
So I fell, broke my bones, my heart and myself.
It's not your fault I jumped. It's not on you to rush and save me. I knew you won't be there but I just wanted to know or perhaps see,
"if ever you saw me falling would you free yourself to catch me"?
To fall is hard and so is to get up when you either can't feel anything at all or you can feel everything at once. that was by far the worst fall and night of my life.
I won't say nights would be better have I not met you but rather they would be if had you—
if I have you.
You put the good in goodnight,
and took it with you at goodbye.
© 2019 Gabriela Veronica
Gabriela Veronica (author) from Makati, Philippines on October 01, 2019:
I needed to read that, Brenda. Thank you very much. :)
BRENDA ARLEDGE from Washington Court House on September 30, 2019:
There are moments we jump head first, giving it our all.
Hopeful it will work, but oftentimes hurt in the end. Then left blaming oneself for jumping in so deep, when in reality it was not you...it was the other person who allowed you to jump that deep in the first place.
Gabriela Veronica (author) from Makati, Philippines on September 26, 2019:
Hi Adnan! Yep, it's a whole lot of roller coaster and teacup rides, hoping we all get out fine and we don't lose that someone special along the way. It's a cruel yet beautiful thing. I hope we get what we're waiting or praying for even.
Thank you very much for appreciating my piece! I can't thank you enough. :)
Adnan from Earth, Universe on September 26, 2019:
I can feel the emotions there....and I can reason and connect with it...it seems the custom of fate that the path of loving someone is difficult...times are always different with so many ups and downs...but sometimes patiently waiting for the right thing....is the best thing we can do....It was a very beautiful write and the conclusion...well it spoke a lot...Thanks for sharing....!