Not An Easy Pill To Swallow
I have done many writings over the years
Things happen and we get ahead of ourselves
It is not uncommon to have blocks of writings disappear
Some writings have been misplaced and forgotten
Unfortunately, they were not in the best place
Some writings got wet and are barely legible
I am madder at myself than anyone else
A waste of time and energy
An effort to make something special
Now it is far from it
I will look over what I have in a few days
I have to be calm and relaxed
I am too tense and broken I am feeling sad
I have a number of feelings I am working through
If I only cared more?
How could I have known?
I have lost writings in the past
They put me in a dark place
I never had the access to putting everything on the computer
Too much and where do I begin
So I continue writing about today and some days I backtrack
Much what I might have written about could have been just my daily routine
My work schedule and who I talked to
Then again it could have been anything?
I always had lots of different thoughts and ideas?
Today you can put everything on the computer
I send a lot of e-mails to myself
Trying to keep better records
Old habits are hard to break
I still like using the old pen and paper technique
So when I think back
What do I remember?
How are my views on life changed?
I know many people I once knew have passed away
They were in the seventy's and eighties back then
That was twenty plus years ago
I always loved talking to older people
Thinking I could learn something
Know one I knew ever wrote
So I was the first
Always breaking new ground
It would have been nice to have someone who could have helped or guided me
That was so long ago
I went solo for as long as I can remember
Then I found HubPages
Where you could publish your writings
That is when I started publishing poems
Thinking that would be a great way to express my thoughts
At the same time not offend anyone
Just my view of the world
Good or bad or somewhere in-between
Then I got a chance to meet so many writers
They were so passionate about their writing
I thought I found a little bit of heaven
I have been enjoying it ever since
So for all those writers who have old writings in boxes down the cellar
It might be time to dig them out
Put them in a safer place
You will be glad you did
I will be so happy you did
DREAM ON (author) on April 22, 2021:
BRENDA ARLEDGE I care more about spilled milk than the milk itself. I don't get it. There are reasons why things happen that might help us in our life. Being more careful and adjusting when things don't go as planned. The two at once are a lot to handle. I have to find little distractions so I can take a piece at a time. I am trying not to get overwhelmed and off course. I throw myself into my work and later try to disperse my lost feelings. I am not sure what I am doing is right but it is an attempt to slide on by. At the same time pick up where I left off. I can't thank you enough for all your comfort and support. I feel for other people that have gone through much worse. I think computer problems can be the worst because you can become dependent on them for everything. We had snow squalls today that came down strong and soon the snow was gone. I hope things are going well for you. Lots of things that can easily catch our attention. The news and all the sadness. Have you received your Covid vaccine shot yet? My wife and I just got our 1st. A changing world and we have to learn to change with it. Pleasant dreams.
BRENDA ARLEDGE from Washington Court House on April 20, 2021:
Sorry, it's awful when we lose stuff.
I'm certain there were a few precious gems in there, but no sense in being upset now.
You can't change it.
I have lost several by moving...
I wonder some days if i will ever remember or see those things again.
Computers can wipe everything out in a blink of a second...trust me. That's awful too.
DREAM ON (author) on April 20, 2021:
Chrish Canosa I love to think many thoughts. Some are so different than what is going on in my current day. I try to bring out my best and happiest feelings and share them with the people I care for and love. The sad feelings I work on and slowly try to change to better ones. Then I have new dreams and desires mixed with old wants and needs. I can go on and on. I better stop before I lose you completely. Off to work. Have an amazing day.
DREAM ON (author) on April 19, 2021:
Ann Carr I thought I would have learned my lesson the first time. It worked for a while then as time passed by I went back to my old habits. Boxing up writings and waiting to read them later. You are so smart to keep your dad's writings safe. As for HubPages I love the experience until it leads to something greater. I am off to work and talk more later. Thank you so much. Have a wonderful Monday.
Ann Carr from SW England on April 16, 2021:
Yes, it's awful when you can't find old writings or if they're damaged because of lack of care or flood, etc. It's happened to me. But what's done is done. We just go on to write better things. Sometimes you can salvage enough to re-write, often for the better. Sometimes you can re-hash if the idea is still apparent. It's a lesson learnt!
I have lots of my Dad's writing, of which I'm very proud and that has been kept safe, and sometimes used too.
I agree that HP is a great place for writing and support. I'm glad I found it, even though it's face is changing, not necessarily for the better. Still, we benefit from other writers who encourage and support us.
Chrish Canosa from Manila Philippines on April 16, 2021:
I'm so glad I was able to read this Sir Dreamon! I admired you so much of how you control those emotions, " I know what to do next " for me this is how you look like in a tough situation and this too
" Yeah I know it's difficult, bring it on universe " you've been through a lot, wow! What a great adventure. Big hugs Sir Dreamon!!!! So much love !!!!