Write Under Fire

Updated on December 13, 2019

Not Because I Want To But Because I Need To

We all live very different lives

Every day our world changes

Sometimes we don't think so

Other times we see drastic signs of change

For many years I tried to keep my world the same

My thoughts were

If I could control my life then I could control my outcome

The more strict I became the harder my life was able to be handled

When I just let go

Things seem to get better

That is the complete opposite of what I believed

As I set my thoughts free

My world began to spin

Not to my direction

In a way, I have never seen before

As I watched other people instead of myself

I also could see resistance to believe

Their life was quite different but then again not what they wanted either

So what is the solution

I tried to track my every movement

I became more and more frustrated

As results don't lie

I had to step away

Give me time to heal

Before I could continue

There were times in my life that hurt

I was not ready to handle or prepared to deal with at this time

Now I continue on

With an open mind and one soul purpose

To navigate my way

Not in a sea of turmoil

Instead in a melting pot of ideas

That help create than destroy


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    • DREAM ON profile imageAUTHOR

      DREAM ON 

      7 months ago

      Kari Poulsen I have so many dreams that I believe can happen. Then reality sets in and my dreams get pushed farther and farther away. Like distant stars you know they are there but you just can't seem to reach them no matter how hard you try. So I have learned to keep dreaming and put my dreams on paper even if that is far as they will ever go. I know it only takes one dream to make so many wonderful changes in my life. So I get a little sad that they don't all work out. Life is full of surprises and we can never stop trying. I have to be happy with what I have and at the same time keep my high, high hopes. It is not an easy pill to swallow. Thank you for your lovely comment and the things you share. It makes life more fun when you share your journey and your experiences good and bad. Have a Merry Christmas and a lovely Happy New Year.

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      Kari Poulsen 

      7 months ago from Ohio

      As I get older, I find that letting go is an option. I used to be very much in control of my life. Now, not so much. Sometimes I like to sit back and go with the flow.

    • DREAM ON profile imageAUTHOR

      DREAM ON 

      7 months ago

      Gypsy Rose Lee I see how God does so many wonderful things all the time. I will never stop appreciating the life that I live and am so blessed to enjoy. I am not happy with all the problems I also see in the world. God and with people's help things are shaping up and I see slowly one problem at a time being fixed. There is no greater feeling in the world. Thank you so much for reminding me God is the center and we are the children who learn slowly but we still learn. Good things happen in God's time not in our time. We have to have more patience and understanding to see the incredible magic at work. Thank you so much for taking the time out of your busy day to drop me a line and now I am so relieved that I can see that you are doing fine. Wishing and wanting more keeps life interesting don't you think?

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      Gypsy Rose Lee 

      7 months ago from Daytona Beach, Florida

      All I know is that as long as I keep to my faith and keep letting the Lord guide me I will get through it all.

    • DREAM ON profile imageAUTHOR

      DREAM ON 

      7 months ago

      Bill Holland Wise words that I have only recently begun to understand. In the beginning, if you think you have your hands in everythng you can make it work better. That after a while and being totally exhausted you realize you can't keep it up and there has to be a better way. When you turn your back things have a quick way of backfiring or turning sour. A belief in a higher power like God is clearly the best choice. I never had control over my eye color or how tall I was going to be. That seemed to work out just fine. I had no control over where I grew up or who my parents were and all my relatives. Each played an important role in who I am today and still influences me in so many directions. So with less headaches and a lot less worry, I pass on the almighty power to someone so more deserving. I can relax and live with peace of mind. Leave so much of the responsibility. I can spend more time to get to know me. It seems so strange that we can live so many years and not know ourselves. Hidden behind all the red tape. I think mine is more a mix of scotch tape and duct tape. Thank you so much for reading and sharing. It means the world to me. Have a beautiful day.

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      Bill Holland 

      7 months ago from Olympia, WA

      Whether you are religious or not, the words of my mentor ring true..."let go, let God." Just let go, Bill, and quit trying to control all of life. :) My life changed when I began following that advice.


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