Within me
A seeping creeping loneliness
A crawling clawing emptiness
A burning fear
These are what is held within me
That old monster
It was banished long ago
But now
Now I all I feel is empty
All I feel is alone
No matter how many friends I make
No matter how much I speak to them
How much time I spend
There is still this gaping emptiness
And there it is
Left behind
I didn’t see it until now
There’s a shape
A mass
In my center
Seems that monster left something behind
It’s small
But I see it
Growing
And shrinking
As if every moment with them kills it
And every moment alone feeds it
I don’t need it gone anymore
It seems it’s just a part of me
No
There is only one way now
I have to fill this space
With something
Or Maybe
With someone
© 2017 David
Comments
AuthorYea, you might be right. But i suppose loneliness does funny things to your perception you know?
I can relate because I know that monster well. But someone is not the answer, though I am not sure what is. In the past I might have said Jesus is that someone. And now, though I still have faith, I say he is not "someone" who can completely banish the monster either. Because just as your title says, the battle is within.