Wish I Could.....

Mary loves being able to tell her story through her words, it allows her the freedom to voice her opinions without being silenced.

I wish the memory of your touch would disappear

I can still feel the weight of your body

Especially during the darkness of the night

I wish my mind could forget my muffled screams

Caused when you slapped your hands over my mouth

I wish my body knew how to erase pain

It feels like you've traced my body with shards of glass

I wish you knew what it felt like for someone to break you down

To make you feel like your helpless

I wish it was you that had to deal with this trauma you caused me

Why did you think it was okay to take my body as if it was yours

I wish my soul had left my body that night

Then maybe I wouldn't be so empty

I wish the thought of you didn't make me hold my breath

It's like a silent pause in hell

I wish I could sleep without seeing your face when my eyes close

All the way down to scar on your left cheek

I wish I could forget your scent

A mix of musk and sweat

I wish I could forget every single nightmare you cursed me with

Every tear filled last one of them

I wish I could look into my mirror without seeing your fingerprints

My body is not even mine anymore

I wish I never would have trusted you

Your smiles, and handsome face masked an underlying evil

I wish you knew what the word "No" meant

Then maybe me screaming it over and over would have been heard

I wish people would stop asking me what I was wearing that night

Evidently what you wear gives someone the right to crush you

I wish I could go back to that night and change things

I never would have went anywhere with you

I wish it was that easy to forget what you done to me

I wish, I wish, I wish....