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Why I Need to Stay Away

Once again writing down my thoughts for my own Cognitive Behavioral Therapy!

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Cut off all ties

Get rid of the emotional response

Be more Realistic


He’s all about himself

Why he cries I couldn’t tell

He knows very little of me

Because he’s never cared

To know me more

He’s always kept his distance

Emotionally and physically

It’s always served him well


Angry for his own needs

Doesn’t know ​that ​I have ​needs​ too

He’s told me as much

More than once


He only remembers what he wills

And only in the way that he wills it

And rarely in the way that it ​a​ctually occurred

Especially if the truth

​D​oes not serve his own emotional needs


Because they are certainly more important than mine

( It’s been proven over time)

His thoughts are better than mine

(funny that I even tried)


I felt pushed out by negativity

Nothing was what it was supposed to be​

I put on a face (and no one knew)

Maintaining my place (which I was taught to do)

Trying to stay in the good graces

Of my intimidators

I'm glad I finally left

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Comments

Kathryn Collins (author) from UK on September 25, 2020:

Thank you for the sweet and caring comment

BRENDA ARLEDGE from Washington Court House on September 25, 2020:

I'm glad she finally left too.

Life is too short to put yourself & your needs hiding behind a man who is self absorbed.

Loving feelings take two people caring about one another.

Nice write.

Kathryn Collins (author) from UK on September 25, 2020:

Thank you! Great to hear from you again. I am getting back here little by little.

John Hansen from Queensland Australia on September 25, 2020:

There is a lot of angst in this poem, and a feeling of relief at the end. Well expressed.