When All Is Not Lost
Just Scattered And Difficult To See
There are many things people are good at
Then there are those things that we really do sock at
That maybe, it is who we are
We just don't like to do it
Don't want to do it or can't get the hang of it
We realize we could change
Instead we rather put our valuable time into something else
Like the stock market
That gives us the greatest return for our effort
I accept that feeling most of the time
Sometimes it is so hard to walk away
I feel confused and not o.k. in the head
I am not ready to move on
Then I don't really want to stay there either
I am in limbo
This could take awhile
I am not sure when I see the door opening
To give me a new chance at opportunity
I didn't have before
I wonder was that time when I really tried so hard
To make it all happen and work out
So close to a breakthrough or a breakout
If I stop now and cut my losses
Will it be wrong
I go with my gut instincts a lot
Sometimes the problem is so close to my heart
I can't tell the difference
I look around at other people
They don't seem to have the same drive
The same fortitude to press on
As I lose my sense of reality
I actually ask them what their opinion is
They give me the answer I expect
Just drop it
Don't bother any more
Forget about it
Then that has the opposite affect on me
It adds more fuel to the fire
If I disagree with so many of their choices
Then this is one choice that coincides with the rest of my thoughts
They answered my question for me
I answered my own question
I was right all along
So there has to be a way I didn't think of
So I am almost back where I started
Only this time, I am ready to give it another go
I have a quick burst of energy
Like an invisible energy drink
That I did drink
That gave me the power that I needed to continue on
Press on
Move quickly with great speed and diligence
Am I any closer to a solution?
I think so
Will it be any time soon
I am betting my last dollar
It is so much to risk for a chance
Putting it this way
I am forced to make it work
At all costs
Are these costs real or imaginary
See that is the secret
If I imagine them to be real
Tricking my mind in believing it is real
Then I can get the desired results
In less time and a world of less risk
So my inner battle rages on
For most people a computer game is good enough
For someone like me
From a different generation and a very different perpective
I am not a gamer
It looks like so much fun
I have so many other things to do
I might have to create a problem solving game
That I can get my desired outcome
At the same time help other people achieve theirs
My wife just shared with me something from Facebook
Having a rough day
Place your hand on your heart
Feel that?
That's called purpose
Your alive for a reason
Don't give up
So technology is something very special
Treated with the utmost care
It can bring so amazing things to the surface
It couldn't come at a more perfect time
I can't thank my wife enough
For sharing something so special
At the perfect time for me
It was just what I needed
Just when I thought I could do it on my own
I realized I was in need of help