When All Is Not Lost
Just Scattered And Difficult To See
There are many things people are good at
Then there are those things that we really do sock at
That maybe, it is who we are
We just don't like to do it
Don't want to do it or can't get the hang of it
We realize we could change
Instead we rather put our valuable time into something else
Like the stock market
That gives us the greatest return for our effort
I accept that feeling most of the time
Sometimes it is so hard to walk away
I feel confused and not o.k. in the head
I am not ready to move on
Then I don't really want to stay there either
I am in limbo
This could take awhile
I am not sure when I see the door opening
To give me a new chance at opportunity
I didn't have before
I wonder was that time when I really tried so hard
To make it all happen and work out
So close to a breakthrough or a breakout
If I stop now and cut my losses
Will it be wrong
I go with my gut instincts a lot
Sometimes the problem is so close to my heart
I can't tell the difference
I look around at other people
They don't seem to have the same drive
The same fortitude to press on
As I lose my sense of reality
I actually ask them what their opinion is
They give me the answer I expect
Just drop it
Don't bother any more
Forget about it
Then that has the opposite affect on me
It adds more fuel to the fire
If I disagree with so many of their choices
Then this is one choice that coincides with the rest of my thoughts
They answered my question for me
I answered my own question
I was right all along
So there has to be a way I didn't think of
So I am almost back where I started
Only this time, I am ready to give it another go
I have a quick burst of energy
Like an invisible energy drink
That I did drink
That gave me the power that I needed to continue on
Press on
Move quickly with great speed and diligence
Am I any closer to a solution?
I think so
Will it be any time soon
I am betting my last dollar
It is so much to risk for a chance
Putting it this way
I am forced to make it work
At all costs
Are these costs real or imaginary
See that is the secret
If I imagine them to be real
Tricking my mind in believing it is real
Then I can get the desired results
In less time and a world of less risk
So my inner battle rages on
For most people a computer game is good enough
For someone like me
From a different generation and a very different perpective
I am not a gamer
It looks like so much fun
I have so many other things to do
I might have to create a problem solving game
That I can get my desired outcome
At the same time help other people achieve theirs
My wife just shared with me something from Facebook
Having a rough day
Place your hand on your heart
Feel that?
That's called purpose
Your alive for a reason
Don't give up
So technology is something very special
Treated with the utmost care
It can bring so amazing things to the surface
It couldn't come at a more perfect time
I can't thank my wife enough
For sharing something so special
At the perfect time for me
It was just what I needed
Just when I thought I could do it on my own
I realized I was in need of help
Comments
DREAM ON (author) on February 13, 2019:
Gypsy Rose Lee Charlotte is relaxing and daydreaming while she is napping beside me. Giving me moral support while I write. Thank you for reading and sharing the ups and downs of every day. May you have a beautiful morning.
Gypsy Rose Lee from Daytona Beach, Florida on February 12, 2019:
Sid reciprocates and sends his sincerest meows and warm hugs to Charlotte for Valentine's.
DREAM ON (author) on February 10, 2019:
Gypsy Rose Lee Life is more about caring and sharing than just living every day without purpose. When I see people happy I am happy. When I see people sad I am sad. I wonder how to make these people happy. Many times the solution to the problem may be a lot bigger than me. Then I have to leave the situation and revisit it another time when I may be better equipped. Thank you so much for helping me think my ideas through. Seeing your comments gives me the energy to write a little more. Charlotte sends the warmest hugs and hearts to Sid for an early Valentines Day wish. Enjoy the sunshine.
Gypsy Rose Lee from Daytona Beach, Florida on February 08, 2019:
Suddenly things surprised me this week. All along I have been seeing days just zip by. This week I could account for each day and it seemed someone has put a big foot on the brakes. I wonder what that could mean and if it is a good or bad thing. Hope you and yours have a wonderful weekend.
DREAM ON (author) on February 08, 2019:
Tim Truzzy I am not sure were my words develop from. They even amaze me. I keep writing and growing as a person. I am sure there are some thoughts you might not want to touch with a ten foot pole. If you sift through dirt and take out the large rocks, grass, small pebbles and weeds you might be left with some good soil. If not try another spot.That's what I try to do with my writing. Hopefully something good will come from it. The readers can be the judge. Thank you for your continued support. Have a good night.