When All Is Not Lost

There are many things people are good at

Then there are those things that we really do sock at

That maybe, it is who we are

We just don't like to do it

Don't want to do it or can't get the hang of it

We realize we could change

Instead we rather put our valuable time into something else

Like the stock market

That gives us the greatest return for our effort

I accept that feeling most of the time

Sometimes it is so hard to walk away

I feel confused and not o.k. in the head

I am not ready to move on

Then I don't really want to stay there either

I am in limbo

This could take awhile

I am not sure when I see the door opening

To give me a new chance at opportunity

I didn't have before

I wonder was that time when I really tried so hard

To make it all happen and work out

So close to a breakthrough or a breakout

If I stop now and cut my losses

Will it be wrong

I go with my gut instincts a lot

Sometimes the problem is so close to my heart

I can't tell the difference

I look around at other people

They don't seem to have the same drive

The same fortitude to press on

As I lose my sense of reality

I actually ask them what their opinion is

They give me the answer I expect

Just drop it

Don't bother any more

Forget about it

Then that has the opposite affect on me

It adds more fuel to the fire

If I disagree with so many of their choices

Then this is one choice that coincides with the rest of my thoughts

They answered my question for me

I answered my own question

I was right all along

So there has to be a way I didn't think of

So I am almost back where I started

Only this time, I am ready to give it another go

I have a quick burst of energy

Like an invisible energy drink

That I did drink

That gave me the power that I needed to continue on

Press on

Move quickly with great speed and diligence

Am I any closer to a solution?

I think so

Will it be any time soon

I am betting my last dollar

It is so much to risk for a chance

Putting it this way

I am forced to make it work

At all costs

Are these costs real or imaginary

See that is the secret

If I imagine them to be real

Tricking my mind in believing it is real

Then I can get the desired results

In less time and a world of less risk

So my inner battle rages on

For most people a computer game is good enough

For someone like me

From a different generation and a very different perpective

I am not a gamer

It looks like so much fun

I have so many other things to do

I might have to create a problem solving game

That I can get my desired outcome

At the same time help other people achieve theirs

My wife just shared with me something from Facebook

Having a rough day

Place your hand on your heart

Feel that?

That's called purpose

Your alive for a reason

Don't give up

So technology is something very special

Treated with the utmost care

It can bring so amazing things to the surface

It couldn't come at a more perfect time

I can't thank my wife enough

For sharing something so special

At the perfect time for me

It was just what I needed

Just when I thought I could do it on my own

I realized I was in need of help