“Out of all the things I have lost, I miss my mind the most.” Mark Twain
“It is not the bruises on the body that hurt. It is the wounds of the heart and the scars on the mind.”― Aisha Mirza
Everyday people see me
Living like anyone else
From the outside, I look fine
But I am raging inside
I look like one of the guys
I talk like nothing is wrong
I laugh like I am alright
I even crack jokes sometimes
No one knows what's in my mind
My brain is like a haywire
I am battling my demons
I feel like I will explode
If you can see through my eyes
You wonder what I have lost
My lips look like I'm smiling
Not my heart it is bleeding
When I am all by myself
My solace is that one pill
To free me from everything
As I cry myself to sleep
In the morn when I wake up
I can sense the heaviness
Then I look in the mirror
Another day to pretend
How long can I keep this up
I'm losing ground! I'm drowning
I want to ask for that help
Before it becomes too late
“Healing takes time, and asking for help is a courageous step.” Mariska Hargitay
Happiness can be found even in the darkest of times if one only remembers to turn on the light.” — Albus Dumbledore
© 2021 Harriet Dionela
Harriet Dionela (author) from Taguig City, Philippines on March 25, 2021:
Thank you for your comment Treshty. It is very much appreciated.
Mental Health Month which is in May is fast approaching. However, it is a daily struggle for all those with mental health issues.
Let us not forget to provide support to those who need it and their families. Now more than ever no one should feel alone.
Chrish Canosa from Manila Philippines on March 25, 2021:
It hit my nerves! I could almost touch the pain you wrote.
In my case, I don't fake them I throw it out, let's say in a healthy way. After weeping I run to my library and feed my brain no matter the agony. It's all part of our lives, we just need to find constellation in darkness.
You've addressed your poem wholeheartedly. This is my kind of
" So beautiful "
I'm sending hugs and kisses take care always Ms Dionela
Harriet Dionela (author) from Taguig City, Philippines on March 24, 2021:
Thank you for reading the poem. Your comment is very much appreciated. The negative stigma of mental health issues is still high even though perception of it has improved recently.
It is good to encourage people having mental health problems to speak up, reach out and ask for help. It is ok to not be ok.
Clive Williams from Jamaica on March 24, 2021:
There are millions of people like this. Some are suffering very badly from Generalized anxiety Disorder. Some are just traumatized by incidents of life. The mind can be a very tricky place. It can build or destroy you. Good Write