We Have To As Much As I Don't Want To
We were both off
Earlier today I had a doctors appointment and a hair cut
Then we had food shopping and we were going to come home soon enough
Before we do what we both dread
Lets do a little summary of what has happened so far
The last month of the year
Came on so quick and soon disappeared
One out of twelve
We couldn't wait
When December was finally here
My wife loves Christmas
She loves puttiing up the tree
Memories of my mother
With her little Christmas village laid out
Decorations popping out of every room
So many Christmas thoughts
Seeing the bright lights and turning up the radio
Listening to each Christmas song
Puts you in a very happy place
When it snowed outside
The ground all covered in white
Made each place looked so different
Every day the weather turned a little colder
Darkness set in as early as 4:30
Then on January 1st we started gaining back a minute a day
I still couldn't pull myself together
Busy with work
Family crisis to car trouble
A small cold knocking both of us off our feet
Looking for things to turn around
In search of a balance
From one crazy situation to another
Small changes seem to help
Big changes were too hard
Relying on what was good and safe
Thinking if I could only build on that
I would be closer to happiness
Depending on my inner strength and positive attitude
To keep going and persevere
Now feeling emotionally better
I could start to move forward again
Today was the day
The end of january and the beginning of February starting tomorrow
We started doing it
Puting all our Christmas decorations away
Taking down our beautiful Christmas tree
Packing it slowly
Together appreciating what we have
The history behind each ornament
Reminding us of our journey
The struggles we face
The wonderful joy of each moment
That continues even after we think it is gone
The only way to make sense of it all
Is to wake up each morning and think
How to make this day better
In some small way
As each day gains more momentum
We see good things starting to appear
Like a beautiful flower that came from one seed
It takes time and patience
Bringing us to a new understanding
A life filled with love
Chases away any amount of sadness and fear
© 2019 DREAM ON
Comments
DREAM ON (author) on February 03, 2019:
Gypsy Rose Lee Keeping a journal is so wonderful. You can look back at any time in your life and see what was happening at that moment. Great work and takes a little time out of your day but so well worth it. Thank you for sharing and caring. I write in mine but some days go by so fast I seem to forget. I am getting better. Keep up the good work. I love more than anything to look at all the memories that made us what we are today.
Gypsy Rose Lee from Daytona Beach, Florida on February 02, 2019:
I am happy to say that my journal for 2019 in which I account for what I do each day is working fine. Now at least even though I was surprised to discover January was over I can account for what I did each day in the month. February always makes me a bit crazy because it is such a short month.
DREAM ON (author) on February 01, 2019:
John Hansen Yes many things did go on. In December I lost family and things got tough. Other people experience so much more on a daily basis so I am so grateful and blessed. It doesn't make things any easier. We all have to find a way to bring love back into our heart when sadness and pain strike. Looking around and keeping family and friends close brings me back to all the joys I enjoy. Thank you for reading and sharing each and every post. Happy Friday. Have a sweet weekend.
John Hansen from Gondwana Land on February 01, 2019:
Hi Mike. It sounds like you had quite a trying time over Christmas and into the New Year. However, your positive attitude and doing everything with love always lets you see the brighter side and overcome all obstacles. Each one we encounter is just a learning experience that makes us stronger. Thanks for sharing. Take care.
