Waltzing in My Heart
It's been a month since I was able to walk and go to Church
Seeing his silhouette in a distance as I walk into Church
I could feel the waltzing of my heart in happiness of seeing him again
Inability to see him envelopes my heart with loneliness and strangely alone.
Hearing the sound of his gigglish laughter is quite refreshing
Seeing that his smile and cheerfulness back again rhymes keeps bursting
All these thoughts that I was embarrassed to share and was hidden deeply within
Probably one might misunderstand me for being romantic and interesting.
The glitter in his eyes reminds me of the stars in the night sky
It almost look as if God has put stars in his eyes when he smile so cheerfully
It is so mesmerizing as I ends up staring, so I avoid him to the best of my ability
Because whenever our gaze meet it almost feel as if he could see right through me.
It feels as if my soul is bare open as his gaze melts me deeply within
It almost feels it's hard to keep all my guards up as he's so closely standing
Sometimes feel afraid that my heart would leap out of my chest
So I keep a healthy distance as I try to give my heart a good rest.
Kind of feel sad when he hides his face but feels like he's somewhat shy
As far as I know only pinkish priest could make him blush furiously
I even asked my mom whether she noticed any strangeness in him recently
I wonder whether he feels happy to see his female fan back lively and healthy?
I heard that he had been praying for my fast recovery and how cute is he?
Besides he never let go of an opportunity to pray for the sick even when he's not healthy
Even his prayers can sound more almost like a whisper, he would never say no to praying
He's very responsible as he speaks to Papa God as he intercede for others who are hurting.
I have been so embarrassed to face him because of two dreams I had
Part of me said "Rosh don't be silly! Pull it together ! Don't be so afraid!
He maybe an all rounder but he's not a magician, don't forget that!
He's just too competitive when it comes to sports and that's the fact."
I just don't know which one is better, seeing him in my dreams?
Or seeing lookalikes at work or hallucinating when I watch T.V programs?
When I finally thought I finally got over being obsessed about him
I find it hard to resist him as he looks so handsome and charming.
In a healing service as I opened my eyes I saw him laid on the ground
It surprised me as he was without his specs and His face was upside down
For the first time I noticed how beautiful his eyelashes are and his face so serene
Except his nose in any angle looks still sharp and pointy but his face looks so clean.
Thankfully he had his eyes closed and when I opened my eyes again he wasn't there
So I thought maybe I was distracted and imagined it and didn't ask mom even as a dare
Then after the service mom praised my thoughtfulness of taking a tea cup from the ground and kept it safely on a chair
"I was wondering what tea cup?" According to mom, he was safe when he fell because of my actions and that proved he was there.
This might sound silly, about two three years ago I have this memory of him
Felt like we were eating ice-cream looking at each other although I was seated away from him
For a moment I felt so self conscience, aware of his gaze and the taste of vanila ice-cream
Probably he would have spaced but my cheeks and ears felt like burning although I was eating ice-cream.
He looks so colourful like a greenery fruit bearing tree that is rooted across two never ending cool blue springs
He seems so committed and faithful as he go along working on his tasks with creativity and intelligence
He's such an attentive listener who encourages and gives practical advices for life
He's my third favourite teacher whom I adore and wish to happen best things in his life :)
© 2018 Rochelle Ann De Zoysa