Waltzing in My Heart

Updated on July 5, 2018

2/7/2018

It's been a month since I was able to walk and go to Church

Seeing his silhouette in a distance as I walk into Church

I could feel the waltzing of my heart in happiness of seeing him again

Inability to see him envelopes my heart with loneliness and strangely alone.


Hearing the sound of his gigglish laughter is quite refreshing

Seeing that his smile and cheerfulness back again rhymes keeps bursting

All these thoughts that I was embarrassed to share and was hidden deeply within

Probably one might misunderstand me for being romantic and interesting.


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The glitter in his eyes reminds me of the stars in the night sky

It almost look as if God has put stars in his eyes when he smile so cheerfully

It is so mesmerizing as I ends up staring, so I avoid him to the best of my ability

Because whenever our gaze meet it almost feel as if he could see right through me.


It feels as if my soul is bare open as his gaze melts me deeply within

It almost feels it's hard to keep all my guards up as he's so closely standing

Sometimes feel afraid that my heart would leap out of my chest

So I keep a healthy distance as I try to give my heart a good rest.


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Kind of feel sad when he hides his face but feels like he's somewhat shy

As far as I know only pinkish priest could make him blush furiously

I even asked my mom whether she noticed any strangeness in him recently

I wonder whether he feels happy to see his female fan back lively and healthy?


I heard that he had been praying for my fast recovery and how cute is he?

Besides he never let go of an opportunity to pray for the sick even when he's not healthy

Even his prayers can sound more almost like a whisper, he would never say no to praying

He's very responsible as he speaks to Papa God as he intercede for others who are hurting.

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I have been so embarrassed to face him because of two dreams I had

Part of me said "Rosh don't be silly! Pull it together ! Don't be so afraid!

He maybe an all rounder but he's not a magician, don't forget that!

He's just too competitive when it comes to sports and that's the fact."


I just don't know which one is better, seeing him in my dreams?

Or seeing lookalikes at work or hallucinating when I watch T.V programs?

When I finally thought I finally got over being obsessed about him

I find it hard to resist him as he looks so handsome and charming.

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In a healing service as I opened my eyes I saw him laid on the ground

It surprised me as he was without his specs and His face was upside down

For the first time I noticed how beautiful his eyelashes are and his face so serene

Except his nose in any angle looks still sharp and pointy but his face looks so clean.


Thankfully he had his eyes closed and when I opened my eyes again he wasn't there

So I thought maybe I was distracted and imagined it and didn't ask mom even as a dare

Then after the service mom praised my thoughtfulness of taking a tea cup from the ground and kept it safely on a chair

"I was wondering what tea cup?" According to mom, he was safe when he fell because of my actions and that proved he was there.

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This might sound silly, about two three years ago I have this memory of him

Felt like we were eating ice-cream looking at each other although I was seated away from him

For a moment I felt so self conscience, aware of his gaze and the taste of vanila ice-cream

Probably he would have spaced but my cheeks and ears felt like burning although I was eating ice-cream.


He looks so colourful like a greenery fruit bearing tree that is rooted across two never ending cool blue springs

He seems so committed and faithful as he go along working on his tasks with creativity and intelligence

He's such an attentive listener who encourages and gives practical advices for life

He's my third favourite teacher whom I adore and wish to happen best things in his life :)

Beautiful worship song that brings tears to my eyes and warms my heart with the Love Of Jesus Christ :)

© 2018 rdsparrowriter

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    • rdsparrowriter profile imageAUTHOR

      rdsparrowriter 

      7 weeks ago

      Yes I am feeling lot better and thank you for the visit Dianna Mendez :) God bless you!!

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      Dianna Mendez 

      8 weeks ago

      Glad to read you are better and your poetry helps you to move forward. What a fun tribute to a teacher, you know I am always happy to read how a student admires a teacher! The song was amazing and inspiring.

    • rdsparrowriter profile imageAUTHOR

      rdsparrowriter 

      2 months ago

      Oh wow! At the moment I read some devotional Newsletters along with the Bible :) Writing helps me to sort out my thoughts :) I do excercises on bed and on chair :) Thank you Manatita :) Appreciate your concern :)

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      manatita44 

      2 months ago from london

      Turmoil is a part of life, but again, it blocks the stillness, vacancy and calm required of the mind to become receptive to the Higher Light. Read more and not only the Bible. Try The Practice of the Presence of God by Brother Lawrence, At The Feet of The Master by Sadhu Sundar Singh and The Imitation of Christ, by Thomas A Kemphis. All at Christian libraries or the net.

      Jog and exercise. Keep yourself busy and watch the mind. Minimise desires where you can. Doesn't a loving God looks after you? be fearless; be grateful. Many fears are born out of loneliness. Trust the divine and have faith.

    • rdsparrowriter profile imageAUTHOR

      rdsparrowriter 

      2 months ago

      Thank you manatita for your kind concern and the advice :) I got inspired and some memories popped up after seeing Sweetest Mr. Pooh :) After all it is very embarrassing to write romantic poems to your third favorite teacher. Even I don't understand most of the silly thoughts and feelings I got :) But they do help me to create poems and empty my turmoil in my thoughts in my brain :) I do love Jesus Christ :) After all, whenever I'm very sad, knowing that He loves me and that He is there for me, is what makes me the happiest girl in the world :)

    • rdsparrowriter profile imageAUTHOR

      rdsparrowriter 

      2 months ago

      Thank you Sir billy for the complement :) In real life I'm not romantic and in poetry I do appear somewhat romantic :) Stay blessed !

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      manatita44 

      2 months ago from london

      Get well, Rochelle.

      Can't figure out your poem and won't ask. Give yourself to God or Jesus, the Christ and all will work well. I have always imagined that you do, but if something is lacking then give more. Our Lord wants you all to himself. Much Love.

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      Bill Holland 

      2 months ago from Olympia, WA

      A lovely tribute...you are a beautiful romantic at heart,my young friend. Speedy recovery to you,and happiness always.

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