Visions of an Unwanted Past
Heather has a Bachelor's Degree in English from Moravian College and has been freelance writing for more than 12 years.
Believed that a new year brought new opportunities
Ways to grow and expand in different directions
Evolving into some semblance of an ideal adult
Rolling eyes at the idea that it wasn't even close
To being an actual goal accomplished in the slightest
Thought the demons from the woebegone days eradicated
Through a year and some change of hard emotional labor
Found out last night that it wasn't entirely the case
Had an intensely realistic nightmare of one skeleton
Came out of the ground after being buried deep
In a vast graveyard of past childhood boogeymen
This particular monster differed from the rest
Wrapped in a cloak of kindness and an attractive figure
Had a deceptive smile to lure unsuspecting prey
Into their web of lies and confusion
Made even the strongest of souls weak in the knees
Questioning their identity and self confidence
Wondered after the fact how they were so easily fooled
Came down with wanting a connection
A companion to grow old with and snuggle with
On those unexpectedly cold and snowy nights
Watched enough Hallmark movies to know the tale
Familiar and cliché ridden with plot holes
Glad to have dodged a bullet when they left the scene
Before getting further invested in a total fabrication
Unnerved by a nightmare from last night
Seemed so realistic that it could be touched by passersby
A blast from the semi-distant past stopped by
Apologized and wanted a real shot at the future
Naively in the sub-conscious allowed them entry again
Woke up in a cold sweaty start at the idea
Seemed to be fighting internal thoughts and reality
Logically knew that this particular chapter was done
Pre-written by the universal secretary before being sent off
To be published for the world to see
Craved for the idea of move away from this sordid prologue
Unable to do so based on world events saying so
Cannot meet new people at this present juncture
Distrustful of online sites promising happiness
Just another outlet for people to false advertise themselves
A job interview on a personal level
Ready to turn the page; even though they're stuck together
Working on remedying that situation
A long a laborious process, but determined to do so
No matter how long it takes.