There are days I feel like
Everything is standing still,
As if the world is moving
Slower than I remember
Before the hurricane destroyed our life.
I’m holding on to confusion and pain
But feel nothing but fear and exhaustion.
I just don‘t want to move forward.
I’m not entirely sure where to go
Or where to start anymore.
I used to just follow you blindly
And without hesitation
Because I didn’t have a solution
To the destruction I left behind me
While I walked through the storm.
I searched for the calm.
My eyes were darkened by the very bond
That broke my soul.
I assumed you knew how
To find solace in the solitude we built for ourselves.
The chains you wrapped around my ribcage
Was unbreakable and fortified by truth.
Just because you knew you could,
You tore me into pieces from the inside out.
You sat me down, shut me up, and threw me down.
This self-hate from knowing my love never faded
Will never leave my heart and soul.