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Insomniac: To What Makes Me Lonely


To What Makes Me Lonely

It's late and I am outside
Staring into the ocean of moonless clouds
My mind wanted to wander deep
To you... To what makes me lonely

I cannot understand my heart
My mind is overflowing but I can't write
If you can only hear me
If you can only hear the words I wanted to say

I am awake but dreaming
Loosing myself to a faded memory
Crying over you
Missing you

I don't want to sleep tonight
My mind is at war with my heart
I have to remember you
But I want to forget you

I don't know what to do
Just these tears wanted to slip away
Of all the lies I've said to myself
One thing remained true
I love you . . .

© 2019 Crezyl


Crezyl (author) from Philippines on December 19, 2019:

I believe that there is true love too Jason and it will come unknowingly. I think everyone is good and beautiful, but thank you for saying that to me, I am overly overwhelmed. Maybe true love is not yet for me, maybe am too young to handle it. But you know what, I think I am still blessed even with heartbreak because I was able to pull poems like this out of my heart. Thank you so much Jason. ❤ God bless you.

Jason Nicolosi from AZ on December 19, 2019:

Crezyl, this is a powerful poem. Judging by your picture, your obviously a beautiful person on the outside. But through your poems, I can also see you're a beautiful person on the inside too. That's where it counts the most. I too have had heartbreak, it's a part of life. I believe that there is love, and there is true love. I found my true love. When you find your true love you'll know it too. I am sure that true love waits for you in the near future.

Crezyl (author) from Philippines on December 18, 2019:

I hope so Manatita. Thank you so much. Glad to have your presence here ❤

manatita44 from london on December 18, 2019:

Is he listening? Touching piece!

Crezyl (author) from Philippines on December 17, 2019:

Thank you Charlie for reading my poem. It's good to have you here ❤

Crezyl (author) from Philippines on December 17, 2019:

Brenda, so far that is the hardest time for me yet. But I have over come it and ease the loneliness I'm feeling. Just there are times that you have to break down a little, think and cry if you have to. Then after that, you'll feel better. Thank you so much Brenda ❤

Charlie Halliday from Scotland on December 17, 2019:

Beautifully written poem Crezyl

BRENDA ARLEDGE from Washington Court House on December 16, 2019:

Awe...Crezyl, our minds are constantly at war with our hearts.

To love someone...to hate them at the same time and overcome by loneliness.

It is awful.

Your writing here is so heartfelt I can picture the torment between the two as your tears fall.

Great write.

Crezyl (author) from Philippines on December 16, 2019:

I am good at reminiscing and crying Ruby. Thank you for reading my poem! So much love ❤

Crezyl (author) from Philippines on December 16, 2019:

John, it is much easier for me to write about my experience. I guess my heartbreak had been good for me. Thank you for stopping by. ❤

Ruby Jean Richert from Southern Illinois on December 16, 2019:

Beautiful words that stirs the heart to remember day's of old. Love your writing!

John Hansen from Queensland Australia on December 16, 2019:

Aww Crezyl, this is such a sad poem. you write about heartbreak and lost love so very well. Thank you for sharing.

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