Things Don't Change
When We Don't Change
It might sound obvious
Under the surface
We may be broken
It may not be easy to see or accept
Change can happen but what happens when it doesn't last
We go back to our old ways
Seeking what's comfortable and common
Even though it is wrong
We do it anyway
Good intentions is not enough
We have to be aware
I believe it helps if we keep records of our own progress
Then again it is hard to see and face the facts
When we repeat our old ways
Fallback to what is so familiar
Only to sabotage ourselves in the process
I have many examples
I have talked about working on a garden project for years
One thing leads to another
Those thoughts surface all the time
I haven't taken the necessary time to see it materialize
Something always comes up
For me it is an outdoor project
For someone else it might be a cooking class or exercise
My list grows by the second
I feel the pain
I can't seem to get over the hump
I fall into a slump
It is like a bump in the road
You know it's here
But you hit it all the time
I have gathered old pots for years
I tried planting tomato plants in all them before
The roots got to big and it simply didn't work
I could of tried other flowering plants
That one set back keeps repeating in my head over and over
Like a broken record
What I didn't need is 40 tomato plants
What was I thinking?
Even thought I still went along with the idea
What would I do with all those tomatoes?
I would give most of them away
What was I trying to prove?
In the end the tomato plants roots got to big
The started to grow good
Then they didn't produce
I had plans of creating a bottomless pot
A pot that the bottom could come off
Now the roots could grow as big as they wanted
I tried a few different methods
None looked good or worked
So I scrapped that idea too
Every once and awhile it will resurface
Talk to me like an old friend
Say things like try me again
This time will be different
What I want now is different
I want to grow wild flowers instead
This time for a different reason
I have another idea
This one I want to keep it under wraps
Just in case this is my big break
The opportunity I have waiting and looking for all my life
I will let you know of my progress
Then little by little
I will leak out my thougths
I will paint you a picture
So you can connect the dots
So I am up early to start another venture
My time and my energy are needed
It is a bright sunny day outside
One that will only encourage me as I go to work once again
To make another idea expand like yeast
I hope it doesn't fizzle like baking soda
I will stay positive and record my steps as I go
I have heard many times
Even problems could lead into a greater success