The Smiles We Left Behind
Time Passes So Fast
It seems like only yesterday when you were just a little cotton head boy
We grew up together, like two kids enjoying a new found toy
So many memories returning, like the time you were stung multiple times when you had to see the beehive that appeared overnight in our back yard tree
I remember grabbing you and rushing to the hospital, feeling sure you would forever be an amputee
I remember your first day at school, you wouldn't let me leave
So, I stayed all day, you looking back, checking if I was still there and looking so relieved
I remember the day we went to the gym to select the musical instrument you thought you had to own
The anger on your face when the salesman mistook me for a student and asked me what I wanted to play, your comment " You don't look like a student. What you gonna' do order a trombone?
Those were all happy days, childhood, high school, your first love, your first car
That made you the happiest by far
My first grandchild, what a wonderful gift of love
Now you've gone home to heaven to find new strength above
Your terrible cancer fought a persistent battle and won
You're now in heaven mingling with loved ones and having some much needed fun
My life will go on and I'll forever miss your smile
But we'll see each other again, watch for me just for a little while.
This was Jackie and Catie's song
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AUTHORHello Brenda. I am not over this, I guess I'll never be. I've lost parents, sisters and brothers, but losing a child is the worst. Thanks so much for coming to visit. I appreciate you reading so many of my poems. Cheers
This is sad. My heart goes out to you.
There is no greater loss than a child.
I am glad to know you have the joy of a grandchild.
Take care.
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Hello Mitara. I know his spirit is with God. He was a faithful believer. Your words are comforting and I appreciate you more than words can express. Thank you.
It's never easy, and can never be forgotten. The beautiful memories you share will always be kept safe in your precious heart.
Heaven has gained an Angel
Bless your heart Ruby
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Hello Peggy. My tears are flowing, just when I think I'm healing and able to function, I start remembering and it's all brand new. I don't think I've told this, but the first Sunday after he died, I marched into my Pastor's office and said, " A lot of good it did for you to pray for Jackie, he died. I was so angry and I was mad at God. The next Sunday I went back to his office and asked for forgiveness. He Said that he understood. That's why writing is so important, it keeps me busy. Thank you so much for coming to read this. It means the world to me.
I am so very sorry that you lost your son to cancer. It is a heartbreak that is hard to endure. My mother lost not only my father but also both of my brothers before she died. I saw how she suffered. In the end, and with time, the faith in seeing our loved ones again helps, as I am sure it must do for you. Thinking of you with love.
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Thank you Patricia. My world turned upside down when I lost my son. It is a blessing when someone like you read my story and comment. Thank you for prayers.
O I am so sorry. I know about cancer ravaging a family. I cannot know your exact pain but I can empathize. One day at a time....many Angels and blessings and prayers are headed your way this evening ps
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Thank you Sara for keeping me in your prayers. I appreciate you very much. God's blessing to you.
Time never heals the loss of your loved ones. Being a mother it's quite unbelievable to accept this reality.
When my son was born...he spent 7 days in ICU. Allah Almighty gave him new life alhamdulillah...That time was very tough for me.
No one can fill that emptiness in your heart but yeah I will always remember you in my prayers.
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Thank you Sara. He passed away on Jan. 17 and I still cry everyday. They say that time heals. When I think of him not ever coming to visit me is the worst. My faith sustains me. I will see him again. Blessings my friend.
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I have no words to say.. because for the parents it's so hard to see their children in pain and...
You are a strong woman I must say.
Your grandson must be your reason to smile again.
Stay blessed always
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Oh Catie, I think you two not being able to be together is almost as sad as his death. I was so happy to put the song on. Thank you for leaving a beautiful comment, and yes, we all will be together some day. Love you...
Dear Ruby, I love your poems. Thank you for posting Jackie's and my song. We use to listen to it and sing it to each other every night. We also listened to it when we missed each other during the hours we were a part. It is an old song, and as we grew to love each other this song fit us so well. When I sent it to Jackie, he cried. He never heard it before. We couldn't stand to be a part even in the hours of slumber. Oh, Ruby I miss him so much, I am crying right now. He was the perfect man for me. I wished I had many years to still be with him. He is safe in God's arms and we will see him again one day. Until then my tears will flow. Love you, Catie
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Hello Dianna. Yes, memories are wonderful. Your comment was heartfelt. Thank you so much.
This is a sweet tribute to your son. So sorry for your great loss. Our memories help us celebrate the wonderful people who pass on.
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Hello Harish. I feel the loss everyday and still cry at times, but time is helping me to heal, and I know he's with God and I will see him again someday. Your kind words of faith is very much appreciated..
Ruby , what a wonderful expression of bond , a lovely tribute by a doting mother to her adorable and dear son Jackie. You brought me tears with your words. I 'am really sorry for your loss , and pray to Almighty to give all peace to the dear departed soul !
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John, to be perfectly honest, I don't remember, but I know you are always faithful to read and comment on anything I write. Thank you so much. You are a friend indeed. Hugs.
Ruby, I know I read this and left a comment but it seems to have disappeared (as comments sometimes do here). Anyway, again my condolences and this was a lovely and fitting tribute to your son Jackie.
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Hello Pamela, nice to meet you. Thank you for coming to read about the loss of my son Jackie. Thank you for the follow. I will follow you too.
Hello Pamela, nice to meet you. Thank you for coming to read about the loss of my son Jackie and thanks for the follow. I will do the same...
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I am so sorry to read of the loss of your son. I have always thought that is not a pain a mother should have to endure. I do believe when heaven is a wonderful place with no pain, no fear as the Bible states. I wish you well and will be happy to follow you on Hubpages.
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Thank you Nell. I miss having him to talk to, we were so close. Life goes on. Take care my friend.
Dear Ruby, I am so sorry. I was wondering just the other day that we hadn't seen you for a while. sending my prayers and best wishes.
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Dear Martie, I fully agree with your comment, we will live with a deep hurt that will last a lifetime. Thank God that we have the faith of a life after death and we will see all our loved ones again. I have so many to reunite with. I am the only one left of twelve children. My sister Mary just died a couple of months ago. It was a double whammy when Jackie passed, I was still grieving and missing Mary. We were so close. Thank you for always coming to encourage and offer words of wisdom. You were among the first Hubbers I grew close to, can you believe it's been 9 years? Take care, lots of hugs...
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My sweet Catie, so happy to see you. Jackie was fully aware that you loved him and I did too. You are all he talked about until he was unable to speak. It was a double hurt that he couldn't be with you, but our faith will take us to heaven to see him again. What a wonderful day that will be!! I hope you are feeling better. I hope you will write on this site. God bless. Hugs
Dearest Ruby, my heart goes out to you. I believe the most difficult thing for a mother to do is coming to terms with the loss of a child. I don't believe she ever succeed, although she will learn how to live with a hole filled with nostalgia in her soul while looking forward to the reunion.
Take care, my dear friend!
Dear Ruby: I love what you wrote about your dear Jackie! I learned a few new things about his youth. It just makes me love him even more. My love grows for him still, even though he is in spirit form now. He has a piece of my heart with him there and I will hold a piece of his heart with me forever here. Love, Catie
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Hello Linda, so nice to hear from you. Your words bring comfort. thank you so much. Blessings my friend. Hugs
So heart breaking to hear of the loss of your son. He is still with you & watching over you until it is your time to join him. Blessings my friend.
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Hello Peggy, so nice to see you. We were really close. I was eighteen when he was born, in a way, we grew up together. I get mad all over again when I think he didn't see about the soreness on his back as soon as it happened. I didn't know about it until he was diagnosed with cancer. I love your comment. The thought of him waiting for me with open arms makes me happy, Thank you so very much. Hugs
I am so very sorry for your loss, Ruby. The grave will never end your loving relationship with your son. It sounds like the two of you were really close. He just got to the end goal ahead of you, but will be awaiting your arrival with open arms. Virtual hugs to you.
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Shauna, That's what I did. Thank you for coming back to tell me. I've been gone so long I got in a hurry...Hugs
Ruby, we can and do still comment individually. You need to approve each comment, leave your comment, then approve the next one. If you approve a few of them at once, you only get one comment box for yourself.
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I see the comment section has changed since I've been absent, not a place for me to comment individually. Thank you Mike, Dana, Clive, Shannon, Genna, Verlie, Shauna, Bill, Eric, Paula, Mar, Peg, Sophie, Rinita, and Ven. I feel so blessed to have dear friends who read my work and leave a loving comment. Jackie once said " Mom you spend more time on Hubpages than Facebook " and I told him you all were my second family and we had a bond that was deep and meaningful and he understood. For awhile I was unable to write about him because I cried at the mere mention of his name, now I am able to think differently and so thankful that he is free of pain, so God bless you all and know that I appreciate you all sooo much.
Very sorry to hear of your loss. I can feel the depth of the grief through your written words. He is lucky to have so nice and a loving mother.
Ruby, I am glad to see you again, and I am deeply sorry for your loss. This does feel like you wrote through your grief, every word has a heart, making it into for a beautiful poem.
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Thank you Peg. I never thought he would go before me. He always mowed shirtless and the cancer started on his back, just a small red area that he didn't think much of until it became sore and swollen. When he went to his Dr. he removed the tumor and told Jackie that it was deep but he got it all, but it came back. He started on chemotherapy and we thought it was working, but soon he lost his hearing, then his voice. The cancer had metastasized to his lung, brain and liver. He was in terrible pain at the last. I miss him but so glad he's pain free. It helps me to talk about him. Happy you came to offer your kind words. Hugs
I am so sorry for you loss Ruby. Your pain is unimaginable. May his soul rest in peace and may God give you his strength and consolation in your time of grief.
Hello Ruby,
Reading through your meaningful tribute to your son, my heart goes out to you. I can feel the bittersweet memories of his childhood and your role in his development. So sad to know that he has gone on to the next world. Our faith gives us hope that we will see our loved ones again in a land of milk and honey. What a reunion that will be.
My deepest condolences on your loss. Hugs, Peg
Dear Ruby,
You are always in my thoughts and prayers. Sending you bunches of hugs.
This is a beautiful tribute - I can feel your son's smiles from heaven.
Love, mar
Ruby girl, I am hugging you as I bawl my eyes out. Please know that I both hurt with you for such a loss and celebrate treasured memories, as well. I understand. It truly was just "yesterday" when we raised our babies and had the privilege of seeing them grow into the wonderful individuals we could be so proud of.
It's good to see you. My thoughts & wishes for peace are always yours. Take care, honey. Paula
Ruby this is just great. Not the loss but the memories and of course how you wrote it. Your man is awaiting you forever.
Ruby, I send you hugs of comfort, my friend. All those wonderful memories will keep you company until the day you meet again.
Ruby, this is heartbreaking and heartwarming at the same time. My heart bleeds for you. Hang on to those precious memories and thank you for sharing them with us.
Dear Ruby, These lines overflow with love, and express beautifully the joy, and the bond you shared his whole life long. Such sweet cherished moments made me smile. Thank you so much for sharing this in your time of grief.
Dearest Ruby...I'm so sorry for your loss. It is unimaginable, but perhaps the only thing worse than losing a child is never having and known the child, and sharing that loving closeness. Your son left many gifts behind to hold and to cherish. And how fortunate for Jackie to have such a wonderful mother. Your poem in tribute is beautiful.
Wishing you peace and love, my friend. Hugs.
It's really good to see you back here, Ruby. I'm so sorry for your loss. It's so hard to watch a loved one suffer from cancer. Your poem is beautifully written and clearly illustrates the love you two still must share. Hugs.
haaa...sigh...the lost of a love one is never an easy thing to bare. It burdens your heart so much and makes you feel like you don't even want to be here. I know the feeling ruby, I know the pain. I know the anger. It is all the same. But just as the moon rises above our heads and light our way in the nigh and the sun in the day, you will find the strength to go on until we all meet in that place one day. My deepest condolences.
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Hello Mike, so good to see you on my page. I couldn't rest until I wrote something about my son. We were so close, and I mss him terribly, but I know life goes on. I was not surprised to see you as the first to comment. You are a dear long time friend. Hugs and thank you.....
Ruby,
Sorry about your loss. Loved your tribute. You now have a new, beautiful angel, watching over you until you two meet again.
God bless.
Hello my friend Ruby - This is a beautiful tribute to your son. He is now in a place without worry and stress. He was a lucky son, with a mother who looked out for him. Hear his voice in the birds that give their songs freely.
Good to see you back. A big welcome, to you.
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