The Unchartered and Undefined Person Within
Heather has a Bachelor's Degree in English from Moravian College and has been freelance writing for more than 13 years.
Have come to the long secret understanding that I'm alone in my thoughts
A lone wolf on the road to enlightenment and a different kind of fun
My logical train of internal storytelling often left many heads scratching
Fully aware that it often needed a translator to get through it
Uncovering the twists, turns and lifting up certain nuggets of knowledge
Hidden beneath heavy boulders to make the masses work for it
All the much harder; usually giving up when breaking a sweat
Starting to accept the fact that I'll never fit into an easy or typical role
Don't like to dumb myself down in order to appease the critics
Even though felt the pressure to do so by a certain Mr. Blackwell
Thought that a few close friends and loved ones understood
What lied underneath to a certain extent; but not entirely
Maybe, they were aware of what was hidden; just didn't approve
Didn't see a point in arguing the semantics of it all
Chose to simply move on with the story whether it was followed or not
Past few months have given into some self reflective moments
A few brought some smiles; and others have been cringe inducing
Time to get on with the show and either perform; or get off the stage
Realized recently that this creature in front of the bathroom mirror
Has been a misfit a lot longer than they ever been made aware of
Never really fit in at large and sociable affairs of the relaxed
Always searched for a quick and subtle exit before being noticed
Not vastly confident though that they would have been missed
Felt strange to be separated from your own identity as a person
As if living and discussing about an outer body experience
When you've always been attached and active in the narrative
For over two years, thought I found a partner who understood me
Turned out he was just as lost in translation as the rest of them
Locked in their own befuddlements and lack of self confidence
Sure, had some good times but two confused rebels never fit
Need a stabilizing force to help calm the choppy waters
And they were never going to be the one captaining the ship
Wasn't part of their DNA to be in control of anything
Decided to close that chapter and move onto the next one
Sure, will likely look back occasionally to avoid past mistakes
Time to write a new story and keep on going
No choice in the matter
Cannot roll over and play dead while everyone else gets to move on
Plain and simple; pick yourself up and keep it moving.