The Rise and Fall of a Completely Unnecessary Alarmist
Heather has a Bachelor's Degree in English from Moravian College and has been freelance writing for more than 13 years.
Started the day in a complete state of bliss
Realized that another year will pass by
In a matter of just six single days or checkmarks
On the calendar of life and the physical one
Hanging on the wall and sitting on the office desk
A new set of anxiety with being a year older
One step closer to being at the end of line
Sounded a bit cynical and pre-mature to many
Can't overlook the cold hard truth of the subject matter
Made to feel that 35 was the sign of the old maid cross
Worse than a spinster and on the brink of completely pathetic
Saddened that a cloud came through recent silver lining
Thought that progress was made to finally becoming adult
Growth stunted with the fear of being a grown-up slacker
Too relaxed when maturity should be acting like end of world
Don't want to be one of those pushy individuals
Who needed to accomplish everything before hitting 40
Time to do this and time to do that
Clock ticking faster and much louder now than before
Never heard the intensity of it until it was brought up
Under the scrutinizing eye of a pocket grandma
With the natural smile and a very judgmental scowl
Wondered why approval of an unrelated granny
Was necessary to have when it shouldn't matter
Slightly offended by the private scorn for no clear offense
Happy that I found a partner to share in fun and mayhem
Glad to be just myself and on no one else's timetable
A time where age can be a blessing and a detriment
Self-inflicted added pressure of being more than
Just a pretty side dish or window dressing
A nice girl treated more than sugar filled arm candy
Felt securer with him than with anyone else
Frightened of the rug being pulled out too soon
Hard to tell what the future holds in this enterprise
Trying to shut the internal panic alarm buttons off
Inside the brain, but there was one switch was hard to reach
Always secretly worried of being too much of everything
Trying to find a balance between dominance and obedience
Without losing full integrity in the process
Harder job than most would believe
Still a work in continual development no matter what
Trying to accept that, deal with it and move on.
Forget about it and live life to the fullest.