The Real or Imagined Confrontation with the Past
Heather has a Bachelor's Degree in English from Moravian College and has been freelance writing for more than 12 years.
Envisioned in the recesses of the mind
A demented fantasy, or nightmare, depending of who asked
Crosses paths with the past love who recently exited
From the cinematic screen in my private world
Chose to cut themselves out of the story
Due to their own flaws and personal detriments
Too much baggage and not enough kindness to spare
Eager to close this painful and long term chapter
Ready to turn the page into a private journey of single healing
Hesitant to turn to another chapter with another scene partner
Not ready to trust someone else after being burned so badly
Still recovering from some of the emotional imagined physical wounds
Wondered secretly what it would be like to see them again
Gaining proper closure and having maybe one polite conversation
Saying goodbyes and wishing them well as you both moved on
Recently, began imagining the metaphorical scene in my head
Walking around the local mall aimlessly from store to store
Shopping for holiday gifts for the family
Realizing that you don't have to get one for the first time
To the one who broke your heart only a few months ago
A reality of the end of a relationship and the time together
No longer a heart broken up by someone unworthy of it
Wondered what it would be like to see my ex again
Not to reunite with them; that's been off the table
For months now and unwilling to repeat the past
No way to fix long ago mistakes for a second chance
Sure, there are rare moments when do overs happen
Both parties mature enough to ban together for the future
Usually, past problems still exist in the present
This scene was just a polite meeting between former lovers
Now strangers in their own separate lives and paths
Chemistry and attraction no longer existed
Cord has been permanently severed for the better
No longer feel the need to hug and kiss them
Wanting to be the right amount of cordial
Sacrificing the need to punch them in the face very hard
Given up the interest in a lost future trapped on a deserted island
Plans of marriage and children no longer part of the equation
Ready to say farewell to the person I once knew and loved
Maybe, one day we'll be friends or simply casual acquaintances
Who used to date one another a lifetime ago
More than likely we'll say goodbye and never cross paths again
Personally, would prefer the last option in order to move on
Changing the dynamic of a failed relationship never went well
Moving on full speed ahead was the way to go
Provided better healing; instead of repeating same mistakes
The end.