The New Me
I feel like an idiot sometimes
A failure
Because there are really hard days
When I feel like I'm stuck
I know I'm growing but it's hard
And I haven't reached my goals yet
So, I lost some of my past that I liked
And yet I haven't reached my dreams yet
So sometimes I feel dumb
Like why did I do this
Why did I try so hard to change myself
To better myself
Now I lost a good friend
Because I chose a different path
And I did make a really good new one
But I have some losses
Along the way
And I haven't found my true North
My dream, where I want to be
There is so much I want
So much I wish I could have in my life
Everyday I'm just trying to be open to change
To new ideas
To being kinder to myself and to be kinder to others
To try to change to be the change I wish to see
I know I need God's help
I know He wants me to have the best
And hopefully I'll end up with double for my trouble
But it takes time
God is faithful though
And I've met many successful people
Many mentors along the way
I'm trying
At least I have a good friend
Who can see the good in me
Who reminds me that I am kind and caring and thoughful
And that I reach out to her
Whether I am feeling good or not!
Sometimes it's the depression talking
Making me think I'm no good
But I am good
I am good because God made me
And all humans have good in them
I will continue to reach for the stars
No matter how hard life can be
But I do wish you the best
I wish you love
I wish you peace and joy
And the ability to see the good in your life and be grateful
And don't let the holidays get you down
Remember how special you are!
Comments
Blondey (author) on June 13, 2020:
Thank you Brenda! I'm in a totallytotally happier place now!
BRENDA ARLEDGE from Washington Court House on December 22, 2019:
I think sometimes we all feel like we are really dumb. Especially when life doesn't work out the way we have planned.
God does take care of us and sometimes I believe we get in the way of his plans for our life by trying so hard to make it the way we want it.
Good write.
