The Insomniac's Initiative into Another Manic Depressive Streak
Heather has a Bachelor's Degree in English from Moravian College and has been freelance writing for more than 12 years.
Woke up this fine, dark early Monday morning
Feeling like an utter failure for no reason at all
Haven't even done anything to feel ashamed of
Dreading returning to the humdrum routine
A structured existence where everything timed
Down to the fraction of a second; not even a full minute
Returned to an environment where nothing changed
Even after a week away from the premises
Only thing that changed was the returning vacationer
A year older; not in the least bit wiser
Energy battery on complete life support
Running on fumes and smoking billowing out of the sides
Heart and happiness thrown in food processor
Put on the obliterate setting if there was such a thing
Nothing left to contend with
All logic and reasoning have left the premises
Along with Elvis and any rational Republican
Left hand and arm full of a tingling numb sensation
Likely stress related or a medication side effect
Something isn't working right anymore
Trying to determine what is triggering this downslide
Needed to pull a Rip Van Winkle and take a long nap
Not a 20 year one because that's excessive
Unless you're suffering from narcolepsy
And even that's exaggerated
No nap should be worth wasting 2 decades of your life
Need just enough to get through the day; or night
Searching for something to find funny
A dose of good stand-up comedy will do the trick
A temporary escape until a permanent solution in place
Just hope it's the right solution
Tired of moving one step forward and three steps back
Finding what makes me tick and keeps me happy
Drown out all the white noise that seems to be triggering this
Short circuit and fix my life for the better
All you need is love and a decent night's rest
What the doctor exactly ordered
Good night and good luck, everyone else.