Heather has a Bachelor's Degree in English from Moravian College and has been freelance writing for more than 12 years.
Wanted to be more than the generalized stereotype
Society transformed me into being most like
Tried to live life outside the lines of the coloring book
Didn't last very long out of fear of getting caught
Wasn't doing anything illegal at all
A natural born worrywart meant to stress over everything
Wearing their hair in a neat and professional manner
Deemed the ultimate display of responsibility
Couldn't have it any other way due to extreme panic
If bills aren't paid by a certain day and time
Loved to adhere to a routine that was ironclad
Well defined lines in the sand meant for strong structure
Grew annoyed when ne'er-do-wells step over them
Erasing the strong construction and letting chaos into the picture
Ready to go give into my anger and go completely nuclear
Turning into the Tasmanian Devil to vent out my frustration
Over those who don't care about what makes you happy
Focusing on their wanton impulsive needs only
Decided against the urge follow my Id and Super Egos
Reigning my dark temper filled tendencies
Focusing on the need to be better than myself
Sounds strange, but decided to fight the temptation for instant relief
Gratification that won't get me anywhere but in trouble
Taking the pledge to always be living on the right side
Whether it's the long arm of law or moralistically
Always afraid to step out of line for fear of harsh consequences
Wouldn't last a minute in prison because hate being confined
For any length of time due to harsh form of cabin fever
Freaking out over the inability to leave those four walls
Itching for some much needed sunlight
Hugging family members and children with harsh abandon
Needing to touch someone if even for a second
Unable to do that during visiting time due to guard's objections
One of the necessary rules to abide by in the big house
Detest stiff restrictions on your time and sleep schedule
So, in the meantime, trying to be on my best behavior
Taking a walk instead of finding a need to explore my rage
Finding other outlets of relief such as kickboxing or knitting
Not going to actually do those things, but you get the picture
Moving one inch and step at a time before making any major decisions
Safer that way and gets you in less trouble
That's the idea; not sure if it's going to way
Have to try nonetheless.
BRENDA ARLEDGE from Washington Court House on January 09, 2020:
I know the feeling of wanting everything done a certain way. Must have the bills paid etc. By a certain date.
It is hard to let go of a routine. To stop being a worrywart.
Just breathe and understand the world around you is not going to stop. You can mess up.
Let your hair down and relax. No tempers needed. No jail time required.
Just let yourself be part of the universe without trying so hard to make everything happen.