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The Filth of My Heart

Misbah loves writing poetry. She says poetry is what makes her heart feels warm and light.

Create in me a clean heart, O God.

Create in me a clean heart, O God.

In this poem, the girl is praying to God saying, "Oh God, Change my heart. I know I am sinful, double-minded, and unworthy; however, if You will enter into my life, I will be changed. Make my heart always true. Bless me with truth, honesty, and balance. Change my heart. Cleanse it and purify it. Make it the way, You want it to be. I need You. I am drowning save me don't let me drown this way. You are the only Protector and only You can help me."

Because we are humans, we commit both good and bad deeds. God loves us unconditionally. He is patiently waiting for us to return to Him. He wishes to forgive us. God is the potter, and we are the clay; we would be lost without our master: God. We need Him to lead, guide and direct us. The potter sometimes smoothes the rough edges and sometimes he leaves the fractures and bumps because he knows what will make the vessel look 'perfect.'

I will give them a heart to know Me, for I am the Lord; and they will be My people, and I will be their God, for they will return to Me with their whole heart.

— Jeremiah 24:7

Allah is Everyone's God. Surah Nas is the 114th Surah of the Qur’an. It is titled in English “Mankind” and composed of 6 verses.

Allah is Everyone's God. Surah Nas is the 114th Surah of the Qur’an. It is titled in English “Mankind” and composed of 6 verses.

Oh, Dear Lord, Change My Filthy Heart

Oh! My Dear God,

Wipe away all the muck and resurrect my lifeless heart.

Make me breathe again, give me a fresh start.


Oh Lord, purify my thoughts, wash the dirt away.

Don't abandon me here, drowning and dropped.

Forgive me, I've spent my entire life trying to dodge


Today, I have nowhere else to turn except You

I have returned, begging you to be saved.

And make me your forever faithful slave.


I've spent my entire life doing exactly what I chose.

Satan and Nafs have always kept me in their control.


I'm sorry for breaking your laws and rules.

I worshiped my 'Nafs' and now I felt like a fool.


Now, I walk the path that will bring me to Deen. (Faith)

I kneel before you, praying to make my heart clean.

You are the potter,

I am the clay,

Mold me and make me,

This is what I pray.

— Vineyard – Change My Heart, Oh God lyrics


I want your name to be etched in my heart.

I am grateful to you forever...

Please my Allah, alter this stagnant heart.


As my heart is gloomy, my eyes remain dry.

Hypocrisy and arrogance do not let me cry.


I'm at your door, pleading for you to let me in.

Don't push me to return to my miserable life of sin.


So, now, change my heart and forgive my faults.

Don't abandon me here, drowning and lost.


Help me, Oh my Lord.

Remove all the filth, revive my lifeless heart.

Make me alive again, give me a fresh start.

I never dealt with anything stronger against me than my own ego; it was one time with me, and one time against me.

— Sufyan al-Thawri

The Meaning of Life | Muslim Spoken Word |

© 2021 Misbah Sheikh

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