The Detached Approach

Updated on January 7, 2020
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Heather has a Bachelor's Degree in English from Moravian College and has been freelance writing for more than 12 years.

Something feels particularly different this week

Hard to put my finger on what's going on inside my head

Just came across as extremely on edge as if a paranoid cat

Climbing a high wire to get through the day relatively unscathed

Looking around ceaselessly for imaginary boogiemen

Coming out of the woodwork to scare the living daylights out of you

Don't know where these nerves are coming from at all

High anxiety coming from an extra rush of adrenaline

And excess monthly femininity flowing at a rapid rate

Making it hard to not be emotional and eat excess junk food

To comfort Hulk like moods of anger and wanting to throw things

Across the room when your spouse ticks you off

Needing some time: a day or two to decompress

Fairly difficult when you're working for 12 days in a row

A mouse trapped in an endless maze

Where there was only a starting line and no finish line

Frustrated that I chose to work this schedule

My nature of being a glutton for punishment

To make some extra money and fulfill a certain level of duty

My high level of dedication beginning to get to me

Starting to feel like the noose is tightening harder and harder

Around my neck as the day continues to wear on

Stressed out for no discernable reason

Not major earth shattering problems to contend with

Nothing new on that front; just the wiring inside me changed

Grew hot to the touch at a certain time each month

Discontent over every little microscopic element

Hope this feeling will end soon

Don't know how much longer I'll be able to maintain a fa├žade of calm

Playing pretend to keep the status quo going when anything but

Nervous for myself and for other people as well

An overly caring nature with no clear place to put it

Since getting my heart broken over three months ago

Probably should get a puppy or a plant to nurture

Have no patience right now to care for anything other than myself

Ready to take a disconnected tactic to get through this week

Separate myself from my feelings to soldier on

Think that's the only way to keep going right now

Will deal with everything once the universe takes a chill pill

Mellowing out just enough for rational emotional thought

To kick into high gear and much needed clarity returns

Hopefully, sooner rather than later.

Someone else to nurture if you choose to.
Someone else to nurture if you choose to.

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