Heather has a Bachelor's Degree in English from Moravian College and has been freelance writing for more than 12 years.
Start of the new year forced me to examine past and present
Dealings of the heart and what can be done differently
For future relationships or tours of romantic duty
Sounded like a chore that no one would want to take part in
Painful and arduous labor to fall into an uncertain love story
Unsure how it was going to end or if it was everlasting
Currently, not too eager to find out either after 90 day old heartbreak
Still smarting from the wounds from the last go around
Hesitant to suit up with the rest of the lovestruck Avengers
Living to fight and love another day after Prince Supposedly Charming
Pulled up stakes and ran as fast as they could back into bachelorhood
Realized that the fault wasn't at all mine; hurt still the same
Not as bad as it did in the beginning days of the break-up
Greatly changed by a choice that wasn't made voluntarily
Not the same naively trusting person willing to fall head first
Into an accidental relationship with an oblivious stranger
Someone who pretended to be forthcoming when nothing but
Trying to keep a positive outlook when bored with the routine
Not letting a charlatan beat me into submission
Needle stuck on record player trying to figure out next move
Transition period lasted longer than intended
Unwilling to make any sudden moves for fear of motion sickness
No medication around for miles to cure this feeling of being jostled
From a comfortable position into one of complete terror
Pushing forward no matter the awkwardness that came next
Obligated to remain optimistic after too many smacks to the heart
Hard hits that weakened the walls and the soft tissue
Surrounding it and often hardening its unique contents
As a defense mechanism to prevent any more unwanted attacks
Turning the gushy material into a decayed matter unmaintainable
Inside a complex organism meant to function and run on blood and cells
Doesn't help if both elements have dried up and turned to rust
Looking for a permanent cure to the winter time blues
Staying as far away from the idea of love as possible
Disinterested in going down that rabbit hole again just yet
Taking a much needed detour into a Wonderland off the beaten path
Getting out of my comfort zone, in order to find lasting bliss in the future
Don't know when that'll occur; just looking to enjoy the view for the time being.
All I'm capable of for now.
BRENDA ARLEDGE from Washington Court House on January 02, 2020:
There is no medication anywhere to cure this ailment.
I don't know if there is any cure...unless it would be to be a cold hearted person not capable of feeling.
Sorry...you have a heart and you do feel.
Your heartache is real. Men seem like strangers at times like this...where did all that come from...the person we never knew at all.
Glad you are capable of viewing. Take one day at a time.
Or better yet...one moment.