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Survivor of Woman


Survivor


I have loved and I have given my all

I loved more than I loved myself

I gave my heart

I gave my soul

My blood and sweat

I gave it all

I have loved and I have given my all


I’ve dreamed of love

Now I find it to be just a dream

My un-cherished heart lost in the wims of time

in the palms of your slandering hand

down into the pits of depression where

my victimhood lie

I have loved and I have given my all


Broken mirror on the floor

Picture frames thrown through the air

My arms clutch my heart in embrace

I have loved and I have given my all


I have felt the deepest pain

down to the deepest of sorrows

I have felt internal psychological wounds that never healed

Your short-lived atonements has worn out its welcome

I am bereft of the picture-perfect image we used to be

I have loved and I have given my all


Punched filled holed walls

Words that hurt like a fist

Broken promises that you would change

Puddles of tears dampen my cheeks

I have loved and I have given my all


If these walls could speak

If these windows could see

If these trees outside this house could hear

If these floors could only testify

they would tell it all

I have loved and I have given my all


Fights that never ceased

Slamming doors echoing through the streets

Beer cans scattered throughout the house

Tear stained pillows and sheets

I have loved and I have given my all


Threats that kept me in fear

A hostage in my own life

A hostage throughout the days of my life

I could never feel free

Should I have even asked to breathe

The one that has me captive would not let me be

I have loved and I have given my all


Candlelight dinners

Rekindled kisses

Forever embraces that never lasted

Trapped in a loop in what you called love

I have loved and I have given my all


There was a life that could have been

A life that you could never see

A life I still believed

I have loved and I have given my all



I know where true love lie’s

It lives inside of me

There are endings

and there are new beginnings

I have grown to realize that the person

I was waiting for to arrive was me

Yesterday I was a victim

Today I am a survivor

And now I am free


© 2021 April Seldon

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