Staging a Valentine's Day Protest
Heather has a Bachelor's Degree in English from Moravian College and has been freelance writing for more than 12 years.
Still believe in the idea of true love and happily ever after
Okay, not as big and grand as fairy tales though
Real life was never quite so romantic and glamorous
Had a lot of messy complications and rollercoaster moments
Ups and downs at a continuous rate of complete madness
Enjoyed the idea of having a partner to laugh with and support
In equal fashions just like any potential personal merger
Growing a little bitter at the mere thought of sacrificing individuality
Once believed that I had a grasp of maintaining a relationship
Turned out it was complete fabrication from the word go
Have no clue how some people get so lucky in finding their one
While others are stuck kissing frogs and getting their hearts broken
Didn't seem fair to buy into some greeting card delusion of romance
Knew that there was some truth to the repeated myths
Haven't been so blessed in finding my own version of lasting happiness
Thought that a rational person could guide their way through a romantic connection
Under the misguided notion that a novice knew what it was about
Had the relationships concept wrapped up in the palm of their intuitive hands
Guided by instinct and respect for other people by forging ahead on that
Sentiment that wasn't truly shared by anyone next to or behind
A lonely feeling to be doing the work of two people
On different paths and differing priorities
Aspirations for a future grounded in a degree of realism
With some travel time thrown in as an added bonus
Starting to realize that I don't know the meaning of love
Don't know what makes a relationship a healthy one
And what would be considered a complete failure
Thought that my last relationship was a winner
Turned out it was a losing hand from the get-go
A lousy deck of cards mixed together for a game
Couldn't use anything given to me by the dealer
Paired with a more experienced player to show me the ropes
Deluded into believing that their guiding hands would help
Make this new and terrifying world all the more comforting
What a crock that turned out to be in every aspect
Realized that maturity and being knowledgeable meant nothing
When you don't have the manners and decency to cope with
Every bad hand given to you by either life or the dealer of the day
Disgusted that I had placed my faith on a game that was never headed
In any sort of direction; except of the separate variety
Have little faith in society as a whole
Don't trust that the idea of love existed for me
Starting to think that I was meant to be alone
No one out there in the flesh could handle such an off-color character
Destined to be a party of one for good
Given up on falling in love at this time
Not capable of sharing my heart with anyone else
Still repairing it from the last go around
Rebelling against the happy couples as they hold hands
Ready to throw some eggs at them and laugh at the mess
Don't believe in happily ever after for me at this juncture
Only thinking of self-love and nothing else.
Comments
BRENDA ARLEDGE from Washington Court House on January 17, 2020:
Heather,
I doubt you are destined to be alone, but i get it.
These situations make one feel like that.
I don't know if you ever get on you tube...but Mark Rosenfeld has a few good videos that might help you see its okay to have your own standards and you can have a great relationship.
I wish you the best because a heartache like this can cause you to shut down. I know first hand from my own feelings.
Great write.