Sitting With My Pain
Sitting with my pain
I cry with my pain long enough
Trying to be at peace with her
Wondering when she will come to live with me
She talks with low tone
She no longer chats
I am what you wanted me to be
Your love changed me
This heart was free, to be touched, to be hurt, broken and mended
I ask if I should leave now
She says I can provided love is in the heart
I wish I could be
I sat with my sorrow, who will ever look after me
I offered a heart to a bleeding heart
But she never took it, instead she broke it
I wanted her to heal, she said she didn’t heal
I went and cared, but why did she stay
She mourned and cried, showing me her terrible wounds
I looked and realized a lot of pain, regrets, grief, and dead memories
I felt the pain and started taking the deep breath, to forget about the pain
My head was a paradise of dead but painful memories
It will take me forever to recover from the mess
When I finally loved her, my heart stopped bleeding
She was relieved and she thanked me for the relief
The next day she left smiling, joy replaced sorrow and pain
I sat with my worries
Full of insecurities
We shared a cup of milk
When it was all cool, I asked her
When and how she became part of my heart
She smiled and said
It’s because life had destroyed her
Was I really the cure?
But I didn’t want to chase her so unceremoniously
So I gave her my chin, she kissed me gently and then left
Told her we need not to be anymore
And asked her to be my best friend
I was not ashamed to be with her, she was not ashamed to be with me
And this is how, I found peace in myself
© 2020 Poet jayken