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She Is Trying to Stay Alive

Misbah loves writing poetry. She says poetry is what makes her heart feels warm and light.

Trying to find the path

Trying to find the path


The twinkling stars still shimmering in the sky,

Days and Nights are interchanging as they were,

But why the time had stopped its rhythm?


People walking around as they were,

I am in the crowd but why so lonely?

Doing everything to live but dead inside...


Meditation, Manifestation, and Prayers,

Why nothing is helping me?

The wounds are so deep, it needs more stitches...


Healing always takes time, we all know,

But why it still burning after so long?


Everything around is vibrant and alive,

Dead inside is my own heart,

Trying to find a very new path....


The heart wants to give itself some hope and motivation,

So it tried to get attracted into different directions...


Alone tiered it comes to home at night,

Kills its Ego, and talks with God...

Ask for how long I will remain chained and locked?


The answer from God always gives it comfort,

When it hears, "I am here, you are not alone".

It tries to beat again with the same rhythm...


The next day again the naive heart wants to listen again,

In search of a new home, it wonders day and night.


I hope it will find the home soon,

Wounds will heal, scars will get fade,

Then one day will come, When it won't hurt the same...


Hope and trust is what keeps me alive...

I am smiling outside but I am dying inside....

Comments

Misbah Sheikh (author) from The World of Poets on August 24, 2021:

Thank you so much for your kind and beautiful feedback, Eman. I am glad you liked it.

Many Blessings and Love to you, dear sister

Nian from Pakistan on August 23, 2021:

You wrote this poem with true feelings. Every day we have to live with trust and hope until our heart will find the home. And yes it will find the home soon,In Sha Allah. Thanks for sharing this hub filled with hope.

Many Blessings and Love.

Misbah Sheikh (author) from The World of Poets on August 23, 2021:

Thank you so much for your very generous and thoughtful comment, Ravi. Glad you liked it.

Blessings always!

Ravi Rajan from Mumbai on August 23, 2021:

Yes, the heartbreak is there, the agony is there and the pain is very visible. But along with all that you managed to weave in seeds of hope and a new beginning . Thanks for sharing this wonderful interplay of emotions Misbah.

Misbah Sheikh (author) from The World of Poets on August 23, 2021:

Linda, Thanks a lot for your beautiful words and kind prayers, dear friend. God bless you always. Hope is what keeps us alive and happy. Lots of Love and Blessings to you :)

Linda Lum from Washington State, USA on August 22, 2021:

My sweet Misbah, I can feel your heart breaking. How I wish that I could embrace you and wipe away your tears. Please do not give up hope. You are so very much loved, by more people than you will ever know. I pray for you peace and comfort. Much love to you.

Misbah Sheikh (author) from The World of Poets on August 22, 2021:

Greg, you are such a good and kind friend. Your touching comment warmed my heart. You are completely correct regarding the community. Our community is full of kind people who are always willing to help one another. We've become like a virtual family.

I pray to God that our community's love remains green and everlasting. You are extremely thoughtful. I am grateful for your generosity and kindness. You are a wonderful friend. We all face difficult moments in our lives, and these times are necessary for the nourishment of our souls. It's just that sometimes when we're down, we bleed on paper so that we can feel like we've expressed everything.

Little acts of compassion and kindness have the power to save lives. Thank you very much for your warm and very kind words. I am forever grateful. God bless you and your love ones. Amen!

Blessings always!!!

Misbah Sheikh (author) from The World of Poets on August 22, 2021:

Thank you so much, Peggy, for your thoughtful and encouraging words. Yes, you are right that we are tested more in difficult times. Thank you very much for your thoughtful prayers and well-wishes. God bless you always! Hold me tight in your prayers. They're what I really need.

Love and Blessings!

Misbah Sheikh (author) from The World of Poets on August 22, 2021:

Amara, Thank you so much for your kind response, dear sister. I am glad that you liked it. Yes, these are true feelings. I am grateful for your kind prayers. Allah bless you always. Amen!

Blessings always!!

greg cain from Moscow, Idaho, USA on August 22, 2021:

Misbah - Your words are so evocative, it is no wonder so many have reached out with offers of support, love, care and respect. This community is as supportive as any I've seen, and particularly for an online forum, so reach out, send e-mails, let those who've offered to be an ear, to provide support in a time of need...let them do so. Count me among those, too. Be well, be safe and be happy...one moment, one step, one day at a time.

Amara from Pakistan on August 22, 2021:

It look like you have written this poem by heart, like your true feelings. it touched by heart. I pray Allah heal your heart and soul.

Peggy Woods from Houston, Texas on August 22, 2021:

These are heartbreaking words to read, and, if you are feeling anything like what you wrote, my heart and prayers go out to you. Tough times do come along in our lives, and that is when we are most tested. As Bill said, lean on those who will listen to you and lend a shoulder to lean upon in your time of need. These caring people may be nearby or a world away. Know that you are loved. Sending virtual hugs your way today.

Amara from Pakistan on August 22, 2021:

Ooh Misbah you nailed it. Awesome. I loved it. Allah bless you always dear sis.

Misbah Sheikh (author) from The World of Poets on August 22, 2021:

Mr. Bill, Thank you so much for your very kind words and advice. You are absolutely correct, and you already know that I always value and follow your advice. Much Gratitude!

Blessings always!!!

Misbah Sheikh (author) from The World of Poets on August 22, 2021:

Dear Pamela, You are a wonderful and caring friend. I am more than glad that we met here. Thank you so much for your encouraging words and for sharing your life experiences. Highly appreciated. Much Love! I greatly value and respect our friendship. You are special.

God bless you always. Amen!

Love and Hugs to you.

Misbah Sheikh (author) from The World of Poets on August 22, 2021:

Thank you so very much for your kind and beautiful response, Vidya. I highly appreciate your thoughtfulness. God Bless you!! Stay safe and healthy.

Blessings always

Misbah Sheikh (author) from The World of Poets on August 22, 2021:

Bredz, Your words are always as sweet as you are. Thank you very much for your kind and soothing words, as well as for providing strength and hope in dealing with the situation. Love you Heaps!

Blessings and Hugs!!

Misbah Sheikh (author) from The World of Poets on August 22, 2021:

John, I am so sorry for your loss. May God grant you and your family the patience and strength to cope with such a tragic loss. May the kind soul rest in Peace. Amen! I'm sending you lots of healing thoughts and prayers. My sincere condolences. Thanks a lot for your soothing words, dear friend. God bless you and keeps you safe and healthy.

Blessings always!

Misbah Sheikh (author) from The World of Poets on August 22, 2021:

Thanks a lot for your kind response, Maryam. Allah bless you!

Bill Holland from Olympia, WA on August 22, 2021:

Learn on friends. Lean on loved ones. That is my advice for today, advice which literally saved my life. Hugs coming your way, my friend.

Misbah Sheikh (author) from The World of Poets on August 22, 2021:

Thanks a lot for sharing your beautiful thoughts and experience with me, dear Yves. May God bless you. I highly appreciate your kind and soothing words.

Blessings and Love

Pamela Oglesby from Sunny Florida on August 22, 2021:

Sweet Misbah, This is a sad heartbreaking poem. When someone is devastated by something or someone, it is tough to climb out of that empty feeling.

I felt like that when my world fell apart many years ago. I was left alone to raise 3 boys on my own, and it was had. I can only tell you that it will get better.

The really tough times go away, I promise. That was a time when my faith in God strengthened. It took time, but it got better. I realized eventually that I was better off.

I am always here and with you in prayer. You are so special, Misbah. Know that your God did not make a mistake with you. You are loved by many. Take care.

Many blessings and much love.

VIDYA D SAGAR on August 22, 2021:

You have brought out the anguish of a broken heart very well in this poem Misbah. Hope and faith makes the heart to start afresh each day. Only to be broken again and again. That's the way of the world. Hope she finds solace one day. Thanks for sharing.

BRENDA ARLEDGE from Washington Court House on August 22, 2021:

Hugs baby gal...love ya.

Bredz

BRENDA ARLEDGE from Washington Court House on August 22, 2021:

Misbah

I don't understand why I feel so dark, when he is there to comfort me ...but I do.

Maybe I'm not willing to see his light shine just yet...but I know it is there.

I wish it was brighter. So bright it would take me under his wing and make me fly again.

My heart goes out to you.

This isn't an easy road to travel, but I am Here for you...even if I am miles away.

Perhaps a bit of God's plan.

John Hansen from Gondwana Land on August 21, 2021:

Misbah, people always tell you to stay strong. Sometimes that is easier said than done... but you do have to be patient. I am sure God is saying you will recover from the grieving "when the time is right." It can be different for each of us. My brother in law passed away two days ago, so I know a little of what you are feeling, though I can't pretend to know the level of your sadness. Prayers are with you. Writing poetry is one way to deal with it and does help.

Maryam Fatima from Pakistan on August 21, 2021:

Very sad but beautiful lines.

Yves on August 21, 2021:

Misbah.... Your anguish comes through your impassioned prose. We all relate to the difficulties of life during trying times. Yet, you have not given up on hope and faith. Keep clinging to the Light even when all seems dark. Read or listen to prayers for protection before bedtime. Recently, that is a comfort to me during troubling events in the world.

Misbah Sheikh (author) from The World of Poets on August 21, 2021:

Rosina, thank you very much for your nice and sweet prayers and thoughts. Your thoughtful comment means a lot to me. Please accept my sincere gratitude for reading between the lines. May Allah continue to shower you with countless blessings. Ameen!

Love and hugs to you as well.

Misbah Sheikh (author) from The World of Poets on August 21, 2021:

Muchas gracias mi dulce hermano. I am grateful. Thank you for giving me the confidence and strength to hold on to that hope. May Allah continue to bless you. Ameen! Stay as sweet and kind as you are.

Sending you lots of Blessings...

Misbah Sheikh (author) from The World of Poets on August 21, 2021:

Thank you so much for your very kind response, Ms Dora. Much Gratitude!

Blessings always!

Rosina S Khan on August 21, 2021:

This is rather a sad poem. The torment she goes through is heartfelt and touching. She says hoping and trusting keeps her alive but again she says she is smiling outside but dying inside. Very pathetic indeed. May God bless her and continue to comfort and strengthen her. Many hugs and blessings to you, Misbah.

manatita44 from london on August 21, 2021:

Grieve as much you can. It's healthy and normal. Nothing needs to be negated. Embrace life. I'm sending you flowers of Light and beauty.

There's nothing to be afraid of.Fire burns wood but the coal is used to cook food.So to the immortal soul seems to leave when in fact it is being alchemised for the life within.

Your dulce hermano is always here for you and Allah is your very breath of breaths. Yet no need to hurry. She's always merciful, like photosynthesis to the plants. Jai Hanuman ji! Jai Lord! Victory to your ever-increasing fortitude.

Dora Weithers from The Caribbean on August 21, 2021:

This loneliness is more common than we may think. Thanks for the reminder to hope and trust.

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