Searching for Tidings of Comfort and Peace
Heather has a Bachelor's Degree in English from Moravian College and has been freelance writing for more than 12 years.
Have come to the realization that it's time to start
Looking inward and not outward for what's needed
To feel like a decent human being once again
Before recent world events and the domestic dust-up
Instead of seeking approval and justification from others
Need to find it on the inside where the damaged heart
Beat a little differently this time around for the moment
Often wondered why these little internal shake-ups keep happening
Searched for outside means of comfort to only find annoyance
Fed up with having to be the ones to sweep up the broken pieces
Need to find the glue and the patience to put this puzzle back together
Knowing that it can happen and rushing it to be just so made it worse
Felt shame of caving into these feelings at a tumultuous time for all
Entered new and unprecedented circumstances where normal vanished
Craved things tangible and otherwise that felt comfortable and safe
Security blankets metaphorical and a little more literal to keep on going
Realized that this supposed grown up needed to do just that
Verbal kicks in the butt not going to help at this juncture
Wondered what it took to find some sort of equilibrium
Perfection was out of the question; a concept that never existed
Chose to wear my grandmother's pearl necklace bequeathed to me
As a way to feel her strength close to me navigating testy waters
Embraced her confidence and ability to survive anything
Missed her greatly because she was a constant form of support
Hoped that she found her peace up in the eternal clouds
Enjoying time with other departed loved ones
Making other angels laugh at her jokes
Giving off her good vibrations to the ones that remained on earth
Letting them know that they were under her angelic protection
Fully aware that this bump in the road only a temporary one
Patience just not a virtue that was ever ingrained in my DNA
Taking one step at a time; learning to accept the flaws
Trying not to take strong criticism too much to heart
Pointless to change the minds of the unchangeable
Ready to move on from the incredible sinking feeling
Stepping into the costume of the survivor always born to be
Sooner or later.
Comments
CHATRA RAM from BARMER INDIA on June 25, 2020:
nice work!