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Scratched Up Broken Record

Heather has a Bachelor's Degree in English from Moravian College and has been freelance writing for more than 12 years.

Went through major upheaval in the past year

Some real life struggles; others of the emotional kind

Imagined what it was like to come out the other side

Started to see some sunlight after so much darkness

Still fighting to come completely though

Have a few major medical hurdles to contend with

Don't have time for games to be played

Too old and too aware of past events to fight anymore

Just wanted to be left alone with lousy reality television programs

Judged for falling for this pure unadulterated junk

Needed a little bit of that farcical escapism to feel normal

Observing the failings of others to embrace what comes next

Accepted what happened before and trying to evolve in the now

Believed that if peace can be made after a bad situation

Anything was possible, except for repeating the past

That can never happen again due too much water

Under one rickety bridge ready to break apart

Wondered when my threshold would buckle

Realized that it was happening a lot sooner than expected

Unnerved by former terms of endearment

Now sounded like pleadings to return to former glory days

Disgusted and somewhat insulted that amnesty diverged

Between the two parties involved in every single degree

Made the decision to implement a three strike policy

Unfortunately, they're now on strike two

One more and they're permanently off this record player

Unsure if the previous strikes real or imagined slights

Realizing that it was largely based on a lack of trust

Based on past betrayals that still dug deeper than expected

Have no idea if this feeling will ever go away

Trying to represent a level of maturity and nothing else

Fighting hard not to give into childish impulses

By going for their jugular in text form

Returning the favor like they previously did

Weighing the options; although focused on what lies ahead

Avoiding what was in the rearview mirror

And what should remain there forever.

Wondering where the end of the line was coming.

Wondering where the end of the line was coming.

Comments

Jamie Lee Hamann from Reno NV on April 08, 2021:

A beautiful ending. Very enjoyable poetry. Jamie

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