Sadness Under Our Thumb
It's About Time
I have tried before and had little to no success
When we are down and in the dumps
Who is there to pull us out ?
When we are facing a major crisis
Who stands by our side ?
All too often we crawl into hiding
Trying to forget everyone and everything
Thinking it will make us feel better
Anything has to be better than this
We can play the pity game
Why me ?
Then again why not
Why should someone else suffer and not us
We can go back and forth
But after awhile we will notice
This isn't helping
Actually this is making me feel worse
We can throw ourselves in our work
Keeping so busy we have no time to think
Until we come home exhausted and the same feelings will find their way back in
We can lock the doors
Shut all the windows
Even close all the curtains
There is no escaping
When we close our eyes
All our thoughts begin to rise
As if it was a steam up from the ground on a hot summer day
Until we learn to face our fears and insecurities head on
They will come back again and again
For me it's the thought of missing someone I love
I did all I could
I spent time enjoying every moment
That did not extend our time together
It just leaves me hanging in mid air
Like a cloud drifting and drifting
Until I see another one of my dear family members and friends pass away
How do I put all my sad deep emotions under one umbrella
Walking away if I need too
Coming back to explore even more
When I am mentally ready
It can be tricky and awfully hard
That doesn't mean it can't be done
It just means it is a very delicate situation and I have to handle it with care
I have courage or else I wouldn't be here
I have the skill and capability to make a bad situation better
I have to think
I have to think some more
Just when I think I am stumped
A small little thought comes to me
In the far corners of my mind
It starts off as only a few words
Then I rearrange them different ways
To get one sentence
From there I feel the need to write more
So I add one more line
Not knowing where I am going with this
I press on
I have confidence and faith in miracles
As I slowly make my way back to kindness
Thoughtfulness soon follows
These lovely people are part of my life
Because we both have found time for each other
They are the pillars for my foundation
It will never crumble
There is way too much support
What I have done is applied logic to my emotional state
I have carefully observed other people in their own painful discovery for years
The good thing is....
We both have learned how to share
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