Sadness Under Our Thumb
It's About Time
I have tried before and had little to no success
When we are down and in the dumps
Who is there to pull us out ?
When we are facing a major crisis
Who stands by our side ?
All too often we crawl into hiding
Trying to forget everyone and everything
Thinking it will make us feel better
Anything has to be better than this
We can play the pity game
Why me ?
Then again why not
Why should someone else suffer and not us
We can go back and forth
But after awhile we will notice
This isn't helping
Actually this is making me feel worse
We can throw ourselves in our work
Keeping so busy we have no time to think
Until we come home exhausted and the same feelings will find their way back in
We can lock the doors
Shut all the windows
Even close all the curtains
There is no escaping
When we close our eyes
All our thoughts begin to rise
As if it was a steam up from the ground on a hot summer day
Until we learn to face our fears and insecurities head on
They will come back again and again
For me it's the thought of missing someone I love
I did all I could
I spent time enjoying every moment
That did not extend our time together
It just leaves me hanging in mid air
Like a cloud drifting and drifting
Until I see another one of my dear family members and friends pass away
How do I put all my sad deep emotions under one umbrella
Walking away if I need too
Coming back to explore even more
When I am mentally ready
It can be tricky and awfully hard
That doesn't mean it can't be done
It just means it is a very delicate situation and I have to handle it with care
I have courage or else I wouldn't be here
I have the skill and capability to make a bad situation better
I have to think
I have to think some more
Just when I think I am stumped
A small little thought comes to me
In the far corners of my mind
It starts off as only a few words
Then I rearrange them different ways
To get one sentence
From there I feel the need to write more
So I add one more line
Not knowing where I am going with this
I press on
I have confidence and faith in miracles
As I slowly make my way back to kindness
Thoughtfulness soon follows
These lovely people are part of my life
Because we both have found time for each other
They are the pillars for my foundation
It will never crumble
There is way too much support
What I have done is applied logic to my emotional state
I have carefully observed other people in their own painful discovery for years
The good thing is....
We both have learned how to share
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Comments
DREAM ON (author) on October 17, 2017:
Kari Poulsen I wonder if other people have some helpful tips also. More heads are better than one. Thank you for sharing and offering a helping hand. Have a great day. Israel Mercado Just the right words to hear after a long day. Thank you. We all have something to give all we have to do is search for it. Thank you so much.
Israel Mercado on October 16, 2017:
Through the darkness we can be our own light as we are guided by others, we too then become a light for others to follow. Thanks for sharing. Very moving.
Kari Poulsen from Ohio on October 16, 2017:
Gypsy Rose Lee, I agree with Dream On, a Go Fund Me can't hurt and might help. :)
DREAM ON (author) on October 16, 2017:
Gypsy Rose Lee When it comes to financial situations there are so many different ways people make money but when I tried some of them I haven't had any luck. Go Fund Me wouldn't hurt and I think if you keep all your options open. Have you considered taking in a roommate to help share the expense of your house. Maybe a student or a single mother also trying to make ends meet. I will sleep on it. Tutoring a student, being a nanny or local jobs looking for help? Make a list of things you like to do and try to find people who need your services. Thank you so much for asking. If you can stay positive you are making progress. Things have a way of working out. Keep trying and don't give up. Dora Isaac Weithers When I struggle I know it is only temporary and if I keep looking for answers I will find them. Thank you so much for reading and sharing. Kari Poulsen Finding you and other people who constantly struggle and find ways through to a new and better way. Thank you for reading and caring. I hope everyone has a good afternoon.
Gypsy Rose Lee from Daytona Beach, Florida on October 16, 2017:
Right now I am on a roller coaster the ups are good the downs are really bad. I yell at myself for the downs and refuse to let them completely take over. Hey, with all my struggles at the moment and help needed financially someone suggest telling my story on Go Fund Me in wishes or something and someone else said it wouldn't be of much help. Being in a desperate situation and not wanting to make things worse what is your thought on this.
Dora Weithers from The Caribbean on October 16, 2017:
"I press on / I have confidence and faith in miracles." Based on this confession, no matter the shade of adversity, you have what it takes to move on. Thanks for sharing.
Kari Poulsen from Ohio on October 15, 2017:
I, also, have confidence in faith and miracles. We come through the darkness to acceptance. :)