Sadness Under Our Thumb

Updated on October 15, 2017

It's About Time

I have tried before and had little to no success

When we are down and in the dumps

Who is there to pull us out ?

When we are facing a major crisis

Who stands by our side ?

All too often we crawl into hiding

Trying to forget everyone and everything

Thinking it will make us feel better

Anything has to be better than this

We can play the pity game

Why me ?

Then again why not

Why should someone else suffer and not us

We can go back and forth

But after awhile we will notice

This isn't helping

Actually this is making me feel worse

We can throw ourselves in our work

Keeping so busy we have no time to think

Until we come home exhausted and the same feelings will find their way back in

We can lock the doors

Shut all the windows

Even close all the curtains

There is no escaping

When we close our eyes

All our thoughts begin to rise

As if it was a steam up from the ground on a hot summer day

Until we learn to face our fears and insecurities head on

They will come back again and again

For me it's the thought of missing someone I love

I did all I could

I spent time enjoying every moment

That did not extend our time together

It just leaves me hanging in mid air

Like a cloud drifting and drifting

Until I see another one of my dear family members and friends pass away

How do I put all my sad deep emotions under one umbrella

Walking away if I need too

Coming back to explore even more

When I am mentally ready

It can be tricky and awfully hard

That doesn't mean it can't be done

It just means it is a very delicate situation and I have to handle it with care

I have courage or else I wouldn't be here

I have the skill and capability to make a bad situation better

I have to think

I have to think some more

Just when I think I am stumped

A small little thought comes to me

In the far corners of my mind

It starts off as only a few words

Then I rearrange them different ways

To get one sentence

From there I feel the need to write more

So I add one more line

Not knowing where I am going with this

I press on

I have confidence and faith in miracles

As I slowly make my way back to kindness

Thoughtfulness soon follows

These lovely people are part of my life

Because we both have found time for each other

They are the pillars for my foundation

It will never crumble

There is way too much support

What I have done is applied logic to my emotional state

I have carefully observed other people in their own painful discovery for years

The good thing is....

We both have learned how to share


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    • DREAM ON profile imageAUTHOR

      DREAM ON 

      10 months ago

      Kari Poulsen I wonder if other people have some helpful tips also. More heads are better than one. Thank you for sharing and offering a helping hand. Have a great day. Israel Mercado Just the right words to hear after a long day. Thank you. We all have something to give all we have to do is search for it. Thank you so much.

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      Israel Mercado 

      10 months ago

      Through the darkness we can be our own light as we are guided by others, we too then become a light for others to follow. Thanks for sharing. Very moving.

    • k@ri profile image

      Kari Poulsen 

      10 months ago from Ohio

      Gypsy Rose Lee, I agree with Dream On, a Go Fund Me can't hurt and might help. :)

    • DREAM ON profile imageAUTHOR

      DREAM ON 

      10 months ago

      Gypsy Rose Lee When it comes to financial situations there are so many different ways people make money but when I tried some of them I haven't had any luck. Go Fund Me wouldn't hurt and I think if you keep all your options open. Have you considered taking in a roommate to help share the expense of your house. Maybe a student or a single mother also trying to make ends meet. I will sleep on it. Tutoring a student, being a nanny or local jobs looking for help? Make a list of things you like to do and try to find people who need your services. Thank you so much for asking. If you can stay positive you are making progress. Things have a way of working out. Keep trying and don't give up. Dora Isaac Weithers When I struggle I know it is only temporary and if I keep looking for answers I will find them. Thank you so much for reading and sharing. Kari Poulsen Finding you and other people who constantly struggle and find ways through to a new and better way. Thank you for reading and caring. I hope everyone has a good afternoon.

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      Gypsy Rose Lee 

      10 months ago from Riga, Latvia

      Right now I am on a roller coaster the ups are good the downs are really bad. I yell at myself for the downs and refuse to let them completely take over. Hey, with all my struggles at the moment and help needed financially someone suggest telling my story on Go Fund Me in wishes or something and someone else said it wouldn't be of much help. Being in a desperate situation and not wanting to make things worse what is your thought on this.

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      Dora Weithers 

      10 months ago from The Caribbean

      "I press on / I have confidence and faith in miracles." Based on this confession, no matter the shade of adversity, you have what it takes to move on. Thanks for sharing.

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      Kari Poulsen 

      10 months ago from Ohio

      I, also, have confidence in faith and miracles. We come through the darkness to acceptance. :)

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