Status Update
TaJuan is an aspiring writer hoping to gain experience and growth through publishing passionate works, like this one, online for the world.
i hate deadlines
of any kind
work, school, scholarships
a dumb creation for scholar shit
pressure pressure pressure
an addition to the infinite stressors
we already deal with
lesser lesser lesser
is how they make you feel if
you transgress or
ignore it altogether
whether
i agree with it or not
that’s the system
and my wisdom
has opened my eyes
to its flaws
so i’ll stall
them with a piece about nothing
except the thoughts on my mind
let’s change the subject
i was God’s little toy
His little object
His plaything
i was scathing
in heartache
all of yesterday
i was sent the text of doom
soon
depression will make its return
tactics to avoid it was not learned
from my last therapy session
will i ever learn my lesson
as i hold two middle fingers to the sky above
past the doves
screaming,
“man in the clouds,
stop making me fall in love.”
you never know how much you care until they’re gone
till then, it’s all just an inference
fuck it,
let’s talk about something different
what else, what else
i just performed an open mic
it was tight
my poems were liked
by many
so i was psyched
but like
i shook throughout the entirety
wildly
a phenomena unfamiliar to me
you see
i used to be
a class clown of sorts
who would sport
outfits that required gazes
thus, it amazes me
that i’m now struggling
with social anxiety
a being who longs for privacy
its driving me
crazy
but hey
we all have our quirks
i’ll talk to my therapist
maybe we can work
it out
because i’m not afraid of getting help
and neither should you
cause sometimes the hard things
are the right things to do
especially to keep my mind sane
my mind is drained
i might in due time write a part two
three more things to say
i love you
drink water
and have a great day
