Remember, I'm Still Here

Updated on June 24, 2019
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Lorna is a published writer with a particular interest in narrative poetry, which she finds therapeutic.

My mind is a vast space of emptiness where words used to exist

Clutching at fragments of sentences which have somehow gone amiss

Trying to find the answer from the pile of letters on the floor

As they swarm around in a frenzy, searching for the door


Memories like cobwebs I cannot blow or sway

They cluster in dark corners where they never seem to stray

Like delicate strands of sorrow that just won’t go away

They torment me with their laughter in a timeless tragic play


The wonderful books I love to read lie forgotten, lost and banned

Their pages have become corridors littered with verbs I don’t understand

Clutching at past memories, forgetting the importance of today

In all this confusion, you take my hand and gently lead me away


The stillness of an endless night has now become my day

I have no fear of the darkness – it’s soothing in a way

The shadows in my mind now stretch across the floor

Joining me in silence as I softly close the door


A melody you sing to me caresses my fragile mind

And even though I cannot speak, I sense love – stoic and kind

Giving me the courage to assuage my greatest fear, as I struggle to remember

I’m still here

Questions & Answers

  • Dementia is hard for many people to understand. This is a wonderful poem and a good appreciation of what those with dementia feel like. I do often wonder why people get dementia? It is so sad seeing your loved one in that position.

    There are many reasons why people have dementia, however, old age is one of the main factors. More research needs to be carried out to find a definite cause or combination of causes. I hope this answers your question.

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    • Lorna Lamon profile imageAUTHOR

      Lorna Lamon 

      8 days ago

      My heart goes out to you Ben and I can relate as my father had this terrible disease. Thank you for visiting and for your kind comments.I hope you have a good support network as it is so important for both of you. You will be in my prayers.

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      Ben Reed 

      8 days ago from Redcar

      Thank you for sharing your poem. It expresses so many of the feelings and thoughts that surround our days as my wife valiantly combats dementia.

    • Lorna Lamon profile imageAUTHOR

      Lorna Lamon 

      2 weeks ago

      It's a very difficult disease to cope with and hard to watch a loved one slowly regress in this way. I am hoping a cure is not too far away. Thank you for visiting Denise and commenting.

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      Denise McGill 

      2 weeks ago from Fresno CA

      This is beautiful. Dementia is the worst, most insidious disease. To steal a person's mind and memories, I can't think of anything worse. Thanks for the reminder that we need to be the loving helping hand for those who can't ask the hard questions anymore.

      Blessings,

      Denise

    • Lorna Lamon profile imageAUTHOR

      Lorna Lamon 

      2 months ago

      It is a terrible disease Jeannie and I feel that scientists are getting closer to understanding why. Hopefully it won't be long before they find a cure. Thank you for commenting and I'm glad the poem helped in some way.

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      Jeannie Marie 

      2 months ago from Baltimore, MD

      Thank you for sharing this poetry. My father had Alzheimer's and it was just terrible. He suffered for years before passing away. I hope they find a cure for this terrible disease one day.

    • Lorna Lamon profile imageAUTHOR

      Lorna Lamon 

      2 months ago

      Thank you for commenting Shreenidhi. Yes it is a difficult time for all concerned, not least for those who are caring for the person.

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      SHREENIDHI 

      2 months ago from Chennai, Tamilnadu, India

      Its quite emotional and touching. Disorders like alzheimer's and dementia are a pain during oldage.

    • Lorna Lamon profile imageAUTHOR

      Lorna Lamon 

      3 months ago

      Thank you for commenting Ivaa. It is such a cruel disease, and to watch the person slip away from you is soul destroying.

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      W h o I s I 

      3 months ago from Mumbai, India

      'The shadows in my mind now stretch across the floor

      Joining me in silence as I softly close the door'

      It is, to me, bone-chilling to have such an experience where you're lonely in this confusion and angst. An experience you've delineated well. Eloquent and remarkable.

    • Lorna Lamon profile imageAUTHOR

      Lorna Lamon 

      3 months ago

      Hi Shannon, There is a sense of sadness which surrounds this tragic condition. I hope that this poem shows a side of dementia we don't always think about. Thank you for commenting, I appreciate it.

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      Shannon Henry 

      3 months ago from Texas

      This poem brings a tear to my eye. It's a subject that is dear to my heart.

    • Lorna Lamon profile imageAUTHOR

      Lorna Lamon 

      3 months ago

      Hi Brenda, I remember when my Dad was first diagnosed with Dementia. Even though his conversations were limited to a few words he did say to me "Can they imagine how I feel"? It was only when he sadly passed away that I remembered his words and I am glad this poem tried to answer his question. Thank you for commenting.

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      BRENDA ARLEDGE 

      3 months ago from Washington Court House

      Lorna,

      You did an excellent job depicting what one might feel like having dementia.

      I have loved ones dealing with this issue, and it is so difficult to imagine just how they may feel.

      Great write.

    • Lorna Lamon profile imageAUTHOR

      Lorna Lamon 

      3 months ago

      Thank you Sheila. I appreciate your kind comments.

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      Sheila A Myers 

      3 months ago from Elmira

      This is a beautiful, very well written poem! You explained this very devastating condition in such a beautiful way❤.... Great job, Lorna!

    • Lorna Lamon profile imageAUTHOR

      Lorna Lamon 

      4 months ago

      Thank you Dora I appreciate your comments.

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      Dora Weithers 

      4 months ago from The Caribbean

      I saw my mother in this struggle. You captured the confusion very well. Great effort to put ourselves in their place. Good job!

    • Lorna Lamon profile imageAUTHOR

      Lorna Lamon 

      4 months ago

      Thank you Nell - I appreciate your comments.

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      Nell Rose 

      4 months ago from England

      Oh wow! Such a powerful piece. I am reading a book about someone with memory loss so this is very appropriate.

    • Lorna Lamon profile imageAUTHOR

      Lorna Lamon 

      4 months ago

      Thank you for commenting Mark, I appreciate it.

    • Mark Tulin profile image

      Mark Tulin 

      4 months ago from Santa Barbara, California

      Beautiful poem, Lorna. Aging is inevitable and, for many, so is dementia. You've captured it perfectly.

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      Asad Dillz Khan 

      4 months ago from United Kingdom

      You're Welcome!

    • Lorna Lamon profile imageAUTHOR

      Lorna Lamon 

      4 months ago

      Thank you for your kind comments Asad.

    • Asad Dillz profile image

      Asad Dillz Khan 

      4 months ago from United Kingdom

      So amazing and Lovely poem Lorna! I REALLY enjoy to read it! Beautiful title "Remember I'm Still Here". Superb work!

    • Lorna Lamon profile imageAUTHOR

      Lorna Lamon 

      4 months ago

      Thank you so much for your lovely comments Lora. I work with Dementia patients and I see first-hand the frustration they endure as the disease takes hold. You saw clearly what I was trying to convey and your comments meant a lot to me.

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      Lora Hollings 

      4 months ago

      Such a powerful and poignant poem, Lorna! You managed to capture in your poem, the frustration and fear that someone with dementia must be experiencing. Your use of metaphors indeed help to convey the helplessness of someone who can sense what is happening to them yet is losing the capacity to articulate to others what he is experiencing. I was deeply touched by your words and your sensitive portrayal of someone who is struggling to hold on to the last vestiges of his identity. Superbly and beautifully written! Thank you so much for sharing.

    • Lorna Lamon profile imageAUTHOR

      Lorna Lamon 

      4 months ago

      Hi Liz, I often noticed the frustration on my Dad's face when he was trying to make himself understood and I wondered what he would say if he had to explain how he felt. I hope my poem did this. Thank you for your kind comments.

    • Lorna Lamon profile imageAUTHOR

      Lorna Lamon 

      4 months ago

      Thank you for your kind comments Pamela. I'm glad you enjoyed the poem.

    • Lorna Lamon profile imageAUTHOR

      Lorna Lamon 

      4 months ago

      Thank you for commenting Kurt. My father had this cruel disease and as a member of the Red Cross I treat the depression which often accompanies dementia. With ongoing research I hope that a cure will be found soon.

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      Liz Westwood 

      4 months ago from UK

      This is a very poignant poem. It expresses what those with dementia and issues of age are no longer able to express. It gives the silent a voice.

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      Pamela Oglesby 

      4 months ago from Sunny Florida

      This poem certainly describes what getting old and forgetful or maybe have dementia. It is a beautifully written poem Lorna.

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      Kurt Frazier Sr 

      4 months ago from Mobile, Al

      A very telling glimpse into the world of one who struggles to remember what they used to know so well.

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