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Remember, I'm Still Here

Lorna is a published writer with a particular interest in narrative poetry, which she finds therapeutic.

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My mind is a vast space of emptiness where words used to exist

Clutching at fragments of sentences which have somehow gone amiss

Trying to find the answer from the pile of letters on the floor

As they swarm around in a frenzy, searching for the door


Memories like cobwebs I cannot blow or sway

They cluster in dark corners where they never seem to stray

Like delicate strands of sorrow that just won’t go away

They torment me with their laughter in a timeless tragic play


The wonderful books I love to read lie forgotten, lost and banned

Their pages have become corridors littered with verbs I don’t understand

Clutching at past memories, forgetting the importance of today

In all this confusion, you take my hand and gently lead me away


The stillness of an endless night has now become my day

I have no fear of the darkness – it’s soothing in a way

The shadows in my mind now stretch across the floor

Joining me in silence as I softly close the door


A melody you sing to me caresses my fragile mind

And even though I cannot speak, I sense love – stoic and kind

Giving me the courage to assuage my greatest fear, as I struggle to remember

I’m still here

Questions & Answers

Question: Dementia is hard for many people to understand. This is a wonderful poem and a good appreciation of what those with dementia feel like. I do often wonder why people get dementia? It is so sad seeing your loved one in that position.

Answer: There are many reasons why people have dementia, however, old age is one of the main factors. More research needs to be carried out to find a definite cause or combination of causes. I hope this answers your question.

© 2019 Lorna Lamon

Comments

Lorna Lamon (author) on May 19, 2020:

Hi Brenda, I often saw a look of frustration on my Dad's face as he tried to communicate. This was my inspiration in writing this piece. It's always good to see you and I hope you are well. Take care.

BRENDA ARLEDGE from Washington Court House on May 18, 2020:

I reread this one.

You seem to grasp the essence of how one feels.

It is sad to see one not able to communicate just how he feels or where he is at the moment.

Lorna Lamon (author) on April 13, 2020:

Happy Easter to you Peggy. My father had a particularly aggressive form of this disease where he also had symptoms of parkinson's. It was a terrible time for all concerned. I really hope they find a cure as it appears to be affecting people of a much younger age. Thank you for taking the time to read this poem and for your kind comments.

Peggy Woods from Houston, Texas on April 12, 2020:

I have had family members that had dementia. It is a hideous disease that affects not only the person who has it but the family members who are also robbed of collective memories that can be shared between them. You did an excellent job portraying those losses in this poem.

On a brighter note, Happy Easter, Passover, or whatever this special day means to you.

Lorna Lamon (author) on November 27, 2019:

It is a devastating condition and one which is particularly frightening to other family members. I am glad you overcame your temporary dementia - it would have been helpful if the medical community had reached the right diagnosis. I am hopeful that a cure is not too far away as my father passed away with dementia and it was heartbreaking. Thank you for visiting Lisa and commenting - appreciate it.

Lisa Kroulik from Minnesota on November 27, 2019:

This brought tears to my eyes. I experienced what I can only describe as temporary dementia after my brain injury and it was awful, especially when the medical community jumped to the conclusion it was entirely psychiatric. I am grateful I overcame it and sad for those who cannot.

Lorna Lamon (author) on November 05, 2019:

My heart goes out to you Ben and I can relate as my father had this terrible disease. Thank you for visiting and for your kind comments.I hope you have a good support network as it is so important for both of you. You will be in my prayers.

Ben Reed from Redcar on November 05, 2019:

Thank you for sharing your poem. It expresses so many of the feelings and thoughts that surround our days as my wife valiantly combats dementia.

Lorna Lamon (author) on October 26, 2019:

It's a very difficult disease to cope with and hard to watch a loved one slowly regress in this way. I am hoping a cure is not too far away. Thank you for visiting Denise and commenting.

Denise McGill from Fresno CA on October 25, 2019:

This is beautiful. Dementia is the worst, most insidious disease. To steal a person's mind and memories, I can't think of anything worse. Thanks for the reminder that we need to be the loving helping hand for those who can't ask the hard questions anymore.

Blessings,

Denise

Lorna Lamon (author) on August 22, 2019:

It is a terrible disease Jeannie and I feel that scientists are getting closer to understanding why. Hopefully it won't be long before they find a cure. Thank you for commenting and I'm glad the poem helped in some way.

Jeannie Marie from Baltimore, MD on August 22, 2019:

Thank you for sharing this poetry. My father had Alzheimer's and it was just terrible. He suffered for years before passing away. I hope they find a cure for this terrible disease one day.

Lorna Lamon (author) on August 22, 2019:

Thank you for commenting Shreenidhi. Yes it is a difficult time for all concerned, not least for those who are caring for the person.

SHREENIDHI from Chennai, Tamilnadu, India on August 22, 2019:

Its quite emotional and touching. Disorders like alzheimer's and dementia are a pain during oldage.

Lorna Lamon (author) on August 10, 2019:

Thank you for commenting Ivaa. It is such a cruel disease, and to watch the person slip away from you is soul destroying.

W h o I s I from Mumbai, India on August 10, 2019:

'The shadows in my mind now stretch across the floor

Joining me in silence as I softly close the door'

It is, to me, bone-chilling to have such an experience where you're lonely in this confusion and angst. An experience you've delineated well. Eloquent and remarkable.

Lorna Lamon (author) on July 28, 2019:

Hi Shannon, There is a sense of sadness which surrounds this tragic condition. I hope that this poem shows a side of dementia we don't always think about. Thank you for commenting, I appreciate it.

Shannon Henry from Texas on July 27, 2019:

This poem brings a tear to my eye. It's a subject that is dear to my heart.

Lorna Lamon (author) on July 26, 2019:

Hi Brenda, I remember when my Dad was first diagnosed with Dementia. Even though his conversations were limited to a few words he did say to me "Can they imagine how I feel"? It was only when he sadly passed away that I remembered his words and I am glad this poem tried to answer his question. Thank you for commenting.

BRENDA ARLEDGE from Washington Court House on July 25, 2019:

Lorna,

You did an excellent job depicting what one might feel like having dementia.

I have loved ones dealing with this issue, and it is so difficult to imagine just how they may feel.

Great write.

Lorna Lamon (author) on July 23, 2019:

Thank you Sheila. I appreciate your kind comments.

Sheila A Myers from Elmira on July 22, 2019:

This is a beautiful, very well written poem! You explained this very devastating condition in such a beautiful way❤.... Great job, Lorna!

Lorna Lamon (author) on June 29, 2019:

Thank you Dora I appreciate your comments.

Dora Weithers from The Caribbean on June 28, 2019:

I saw my mother in this struggle. You captured the confusion very well. Great effort to put ourselves in their place. Good job!

Lorna Lamon (author) on June 28, 2019:

Thank you Nell - I appreciate your comments.

Nell Rose from England on June 28, 2019:

Oh wow! Such a powerful piece. I am reading a book about someone with memory loss so this is very appropriate.

Lorna Lamon (author) on June 27, 2019:

Thank you for commenting Mark, I appreciate it.

Mark Tulin from Santa Barbara, California on June 26, 2019:

Beautiful poem, Lorna. Aging is inevitable and, for many, so is dementia. You've captured it perfectly.

Asad Dillz Khan from United Kingdom on June 25, 2019:

You're Welcome!

Lorna Lamon (author) on June 25, 2019:

Thank you for your kind comments Asad.

Asad Dillz Khan from United Kingdom on June 25, 2019:

So amazing and Lovely poem Lorna! I REALLY enjoy to read it! Beautiful title "Remember I'm Still Here". Superb work!

Lorna Lamon (author) on June 25, 2019:

Thank you so much for your lovely comments Lora. I work with Dementia patients and I see first-hand the frustration they endure as the disease takes hold. You saw clearly what I was trying to convey and your comments meant a lot to me.

Lora Hollings on June 24, 2019:

Such a powerful and poignant poem, Lorna! You managed to capture in your poem, the frustration and fear that someone with dementia must be experiencing. Your use of metaphors indeed help to convey the helplessness of someone who can sense what is happening to them yet is losing the capacity to articulate to others what he is experiencing. I was deeply touched by your words and your sensitive portrayal of someone who is struggling to hold on to the last vestiges of his identity. Superbly and beautifully written! Thank you so much for sharing.

Lorna Lamon (author) on June 24, 2019:

Hi Liz, I often noticed the frustration on my Dad's face when he was trying to make himself understood and I wondered what he would say if he had to explain how he felt. I hope my poem did this. Thank you for your kind comments.

Lorna Lamon (author) on June 24, 2019:

Thank you for your kind comments Pamela. I'm glad you enjoyed the poem.

Lorna Lamon (author) on June 24, 2019:

Thank you for commenting Kurt. My father had this cruel disease and as a member of the Red Cross I treat the depression which often accompanies dementia. With ongoing research I hope that a cure will be found soon.

Liz Westwood from UK on June 24, 2019:

This is a very poignant poem. It expresses what those with dementia and issues of age are no longer able to express. It gives the silent a voice.

Pamela Oglesby from Sunny Florida on June 24, 2019:

This poem certainly describes what getting old and forgetful or maybe have dementia. It is a beautifully written poem Lorna.

Kurt Frazier Sr from Mobile, Al on June 24, 2019:

A very telling glimpse into the world of one who struggles to remember what they used to know so well.