Relationship Smoke and Mirrors: Exposing the Truth
Heather has a Bachelor's Degree in English from Moravian College and has been freelance writing for more than 12 years.
Christmas approaching in a matter of days
A lot has changed in the past year
Last holiday season focused on buying perfect gifts
Including a special someone into the gift plans
Managed to hit a decent home run with my gift
Pictured many more holiday moments of joy and presents
What a difference 365 days makes to the equation
Substracted buying presents for one person
While maintaining sense of balance to the remaining tribe
This time around holidays seemed a little anti-climatic
Probably because heart is still not fully recovered
Understandable to be dealing with such a loss and betrayal
Realized that the end was nearer for it than I expected
Just wasn't noticing the signs until it was glaringly too late
Remembered back on some those supposed good times
And understood that Mr. Clause needed to put him on one of his lists
You can guess that it won't be on his nice list this year, or next year
Now, back to the tale at hand and some polite investigation
Dealt with some harsh and shocking truths in past three months
Enjoyed being in a relationship, not the aftermath though
As a newly single and cynical woman with some experience
Under her black and pink lace garter belt
Some emotional scars from a battle of the heart
Felt initially strong attraction when we first met
Like being struck by lightning wrapped in tin foil
Impact was strong and full of electricity
Pulled back due to 20 year age difference
Thought we were in two different stages in life
Turned out first instinct was the best one
Impossible to ignore strong sparks such as that
Best to get hit by Thor's thunder bolt full blast
And recover from the aftershocks once it's done
Went full tilt boogie into an adventure that left head spinning
Excited as if you locked in Willy Wonka's factory for a day
Ate so much chocolate that it was hard to function
Fatigued and grossed out by all the sugary goodness
Stuck in a junk food coma that was nearly impossible to shake
Technically, that's what a relationship can also mimic
Overlooking all the negative aspects and focusing on only the good
It can be optimistic to always believe in the good
Better to be realistic at looking at both aspects of a partner's character
Equipped with the knowledge of entering a relationship
Eyes and heart wide open to better prepare yourself for any and all outcomes
Can't always prevent getting your heart broken
Hard to not lose faith in the opposite sex and the hope finding new love
Not ready to throw in the towel just yet
Needing to regroup from the last battle before moving onto the next one
Don't know when that will be; best things come when you least expect them.