Hyn Edwit is a university student who loves to explore his thoughts through haiku.
Everytime I loosen my grip, I tend not to succeed
And at times, tightening my grip is not enough
I end up blaming myself completely
Crushing what little confidence I have left
But right now I can't help but put on the blame
To someone or to something so abstract
I'd do this many times for me to breathe, for me to still smile
While running in this race we call life
And as I thought I could do it
I always end up crumbling in the middle
Breaking down with no tears in my face
As I look up in the gray colored sky
And when every being runs past by me
I wished for something above
Let the rain pour its sorrows out
For it'll be my tears of disappointment and regret
And as I wait for the rain to pour
I try to make out what's ahead of me
It's a blurry path with no goal to be seen
Yet they seem to be reaching something anyway
As I take in the coldness of the wind
Light then descended into the cracks of the heavens
As if consoling me from all the pain
As if telling me not to give in
"I'm not worthy" I told the light
"Your consolation is wasted on me
Just give up on me and let the rain pour
It'll be my tears 'cause I'm unable to cry"
The light continued to descend
Warming the previously cold breeze
As if embracing me right now
Yet I refuse to accept its warmth
At this point, I already gave up
I sat back and lied myself down
Watching them all run in the race
This race that we call life
And when a certain point came where I wanted
To join the race once again
No strength could ever hold my legs up
Cause by then, everything's too late
It'll be another regret of mine
Paths vanished, doors closed
They have given up on me
Yet the light continues to shine
I've been waiting for the rain to pour
Cause I know that those are my tears
Yet the light shines brighter than ever
As I still refuse its warmth and beauty
For me, it'll just be an endless cycle
Of regret, jealousy and disappointment
And so... the rain poured and the light dissipated
On my lifeless form on the race track
© 2020 Hyn Edwit
Hyn Edwit (author) on December 06, 2020:
Good day Brenda! Thank you very much for your kind words. Indeed, life is too short to give up and it was a long time before I realized this. I still doubt myself even now but I am, slowly trying to let the light embrace me.
Again, thank you for stopping by.
BRENDA ARLEDGE from Washington Court House on December 06, 2020:
I can feel the sadness in your life.
You want to let the light embrace you. Let it in!
Life is too short to give up.
We constantly plan our lives out minute to minute when we really need to sit back and enjoy each moment that comes our way without any expectations.
It is not easy to do since we are used to being in control, but God has s plan for our lives.
We must trust it. Lift yourself back up again and smile.
You are alive to see yet another day. Make it worthwhile.