The New Persephone~it Is Winter after all
Yes, that's riiight. You don't know or you don't remember. Deny or lie, never the reason why. What was it you said so long ago..never give the indiction that you are being less than honest? Never let them think you have ever lied? Afraid of that can of worms you spend your life entire concealing?
What's the point of that? You deny feeling
Be patient calm wait for it
that bomb you planted, set to detonate
as soon as we're in a crowded situate.
Now you won't have to substantiate
how extreme ! fluctuate
Slow realization of this pattern
I couldn't see it because you seem
so concerned and so supportive
So while people are looking
I'd better make the call
so I can call your bluff
You'll hesitate to stall
If it's for the benefit of all
And so ingrained, so intrained is
this way of being
you can't be certain of what
you're seeing until it's too late
And you've seen the warning
And heed it not
Don't take my word for it
Though-keep believing without seeing
Keep a foot on me cause I have no validity
When you draw the worst outta me
On purpose-it dawns on me
Keep me in suspense,
Knowing you're hurting me
And wonder why i'm tense
You gotta ask me that twice?
If I should happen to chance
and win-would I do the right thing?
YOU HAVENT BEEN PAYING ATTENTION AT ALL,
Go ahead, ask me again..
Go ahead, I said
What do you fear?
After everything and all this time...
How dare you, wow really?
Oh ya mean like when I already have,
Didn't I? Didn't I?
Oh yeah-someone says
yeah that's what they were
gonna do-do-da-do but when it came time,
figure out a reason to not hand over a dime,
which is fine, motherfucker.
I never asked for it in the first place-
you offered, then reneged.
There's a term people use for that action--huh?
I'm surprised you would do that to your people,
then again-par for the course.
Whittle your kind down,
you'll for certain do the same to me.
Trial. Jury. Lousy company.
Twice. That's 2 times on 2 different occasions. Third time now would be on me. I just had to get confirmation on your game-this is your m.o. and the way you don't do a thing.
So used to lyin' you're not even tryin'
Your actions transparent,
when you're obviously apparent
and flex in stability.
Can't possibly be circumstance, now how could it?
must be inside me,
You can't hear the truth
to set you free.
"Don't worry about it"?
Trick, that's all I do.
You are SERIOUSLY GRIEVING ME
Your clot is so thick
You don't even consider
couldn't give a lick
the pill you're giving me really is bitter
and I'm far better suited
to be somewhere rooted.
Idle hands make the devil's plans
Took care o' me alright
Straight jacketed without the mental
Gonna count to 3, hope I see all of me
You grasp not the brevity of the situation
make me wait to anticipate
a move you'll never make
soon to be a moot point
as I tighten this loose joint
and give you back the hell
you so quickly wished upon me
tell me another story
tighten the noose for me
After all, we're hardly much to sacrifice
No one gonna miss us
Because we pay the price.
It just gets better and better
As this room resume to consume
The plume of cold sweat - no ventilation
Just aggravation and justification
while so brazen and cavelier
you should be raising the chandelier
Like I say, you're killing me sloppily
Gotta clean up the mess of stress
so easily avoided
but oh no!
I have been be-?/#%^ed.
And left to figure it out myself.
Now that someone's looking sure
you are more than happy to play
your part, on the surface
Of course you are always sweet and nice
(but your veins must run cold with ice)
But more damage has been done to me
with a smile so sweetfully
Don't you see?
How far you flung me into sea
middle of nowhere, no where to be found
won't give up this road 'til I stand on solid ground.
You've floundered upon your foundation
so everything you build upon wont be
moulded upon cemetation.
Foole. If you believe you'll be given
what's yours and yours alone
Ask me what I think "well Caesar
don't you remember?
the lengths they've gone to keep you here
ya think they'll figure out a reason
to keep you addle, treat you like a child
acclimate to your sense of guilt
and use you up and then say
you're not fit to handle your own affairs.
Riiight, all that talking down to you,
like you don't know what to do
pays off in the end for them
when they carry off your wealth and your health.
or it least the ability and space to create it,
call you the new Persephone.
Fuck with your livilihood here, hey it's okay!
No one's a boy scout, not even a plan, man!
Don't look at me when it blows up in our face
what we gonna do when we gotta leave this place?
Just keep hoping something will fall into your lap
Your faith is commendable but falls short of common sense
and we're getting too old to be straddling the fence.
No one's gonna rescue you
no one gonna come to your defense
How do I know? "Pinch me!
Nope! Didn't feel a thang!"
Thumb on you, thumb on me
shame on you shame on me
we have got to have some
responsibility-or in this life
we'll never be fuckin' free
to buy your choice and live
your life the way it's meant to be
and not some band-aid that chokes the air
out of you instead of letting it breathe
I don't believe you really want the best for me, lest we
else you'd wake up and smell the mud that smudges
your guts and wears you down
and can't even judge it correctly,
Aaah I see your country right or wrong
can't argue with that pretzel logic
it's twisted fragmented loyalty
to a cause no longer meant to be
a distribution of what remains
if you're so worried you'd plan for it
someon'e's been lyin' to you
or hopefully for you, it's just to me
Which I get that, no prob.
I wasn't even probing
you offered up that info
seem to be a tell is all
go on, who's the enemy?
someone gonna try and seize your palace
again don't look my way it ain't me"
I've honed the ability to look at it objectively,
I've had to do it even in my own family.
Oh great! now I've just crucified me,
I did it, I broke the damn
(so levy the dike, dammit)
I'll take responsibility, cause I know who I am
Or at least I should
but I'll get down off the cross now
because they need the wood.