I suffer from depression, anxiety, bipolar disorder, PTSD, and ADD. Unfortunately, there are no cures for these awful mental illnesses.
Depression... It feels like this....
"Oh, but your family loves you so much!"
I wish I could see it... It's just too dark
"But your kids... They're so amazing!"
I'm trying to see that through this darkness.
"You're so lucky to have a roof over your head.."
Am I? I can't tell through this dark, dense fog of helplessness...
"You have people who love you."
Do I? I can't seem to see that through this dark, thick cloud of emptiness....
"You are so smart."
I am? I don't feel that way with this dark fog of anxiety around my head..
"You are talented."
I sure don't feel that way... Hard to see it through this intense, pitch blackness..
"You're gonna be okay."
Really? Cause everything looks and feels dark and gloomy from my point of view, and I don't feel like I'm gonna be okay at all.
It's hard to see the light when you're suffocating in a dark, dense cloud of doom and gloom.
Hard to feel happiness when you feel such immense sadness.
Hard to feel joy when you feel such extreme hopelessness.
Hard to feel hopeful when everything seems so damned hopeless.
Hard to be happy when I feel this awful, looming, neverending sadness in my chest.
Hard to hold on when all there is to grip onto is doom, gloom and agonizing anxiety.
It's just hard. Extremely, incredibly, insanely hard.
Kari Poulsen from Ohio on September 16, 2019:
I like your poem. I also suffer with depression and your poem tells the truth of the darkness. Its incredible hard to explain the darkness, the grayness of life, but you have done this well.
Shing Araya from Cebu, Philippines on September 16, 2019:
Intensely emotional. You got me.
Lorna Lamon on September 16, 2019:
You have highlighted the hopelessness which surrounds depression and other mental illnesses Sheila in this realistic poem. Even with the best treatment plan there will always be times, particularly in the case of Bipolar disorder where it is extremely difficult to control the thoughts. Thank you for drawing attention to the reality of mental illness.