Poetry Stance: Checking Inside
Fighting Internally
Who thought this moment would come one day
Unexpected path for which I wasn’t prepared
Is it worth the regret and the worry?
Or should I try and pursue the unthinkable
Virgin to this path, being anxious was expected
But truth be told my fears got overwhelming
I suddenly thought this may be my end
And my negativity almost cost me everything
Trying to accept the unexpected as a part of life
Most times it was hard trying to hide the disappointment
My mind at times provided way too much counter action
But saving myself would be my personal sanction
I started writing notes to myself
Waiting for that spark of reminder of strength
I knew I was capable but too blind to see
My recovery was the only thing to set me free
Sad to say, but I forgot my worth
Hardly embracing how far I had come
Wanting to replenish the vibe with which I begun
If only I had known this was only simulation
The potential I failed to admit
Almost cost me my destiny
But then I remembered I had the blueprint
Once a winner you never see the option to quit
I can stop being mediocre
I need to own this internal battle
Straightening that crown with revenge
Never looking back, pushing to first place
© 2018 Valencia Marquez