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Poem: Daily Struggle

I was diagnosed with a menogioma brain tumor in 2006. I had Gamma Knife Surgery in October of 2018 which is radiation to shrink tumor.

"Overcomer" by Mandisa

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A constant turmoil
from the time your feet hit the ground,
not certain if you can take a step
or walk a normal stride.

The agony of moving forward
when your head is spinning
in a world of it’s own,
beating to the sound
of unfamiliar noises,
no one else can hear.

The excruciating pain throbbing
at different pinpoints
on your skull,
your eyes shaking for undetermined brief seconds
like a volcano erupting
with no warning.

Keeping a smile on your face
pretending to be fine
when you really want to cry,
feeling trapped like you are in a rat maze
you keep stumbling forward,
praying you will make it
with no one noticing.

Trying to sleep
when the touch of a pillow
hurts your brain,
hearing echoes of strange music
playing static in your ear,
with a million thoughts running loose
out of control.

Without complaints,
except for a few
that squeaked out when you were unaware,
you make it through the day
with no retreat
of hiding in your bed,
feeling blessed you are alive
to try again tomorrow.

"Fight Song" by Rachell Platten

© 2019 BRENDA ARLEDGE

Comments

BRENDA ARLEDGE (author) from Washington Court House on November 08, 2019:

Thank you Reformed Eve.

Yes, hope pushes us to keep going.

Thank you for reading and for your wonderful comments.

Reformed Eve from USA on November 08, 2019:

I enjoyed this poem. It was really beautiful and I have related to it several times. Hope exists in the tomorrow, and hope is sometimes the only thread that keeps up tied to life. Beautiful poem.

BRENDA ARLEDGE (author) from Washington Court House on November 07, 2019:

Thank you, Glenn.

Life does go on and it is a wonderful struggle.

I appreciate you reading my work.

Glenn Stok from Long Island, NY on November 07, 2019:

No matter how much of a struggle things may be, life goes on. That's the essence of this wonderful poem.

BRENDA ARLEDGE (author) from Washington Court House on November 05, 2019:

John,

Glad to hear I described it well. It's not to find the right words.

I do appreciate you reading my work. Thank you.

John Hansen from Queensland Australia on November 05, 2019:

Been, life can be a struggle and you describe it well. I love the fight song too.